Eighteen and up.~Ziall~

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 " I- well I'm...its positive." It wasn't like I was angry, but something tells me I should tear the whole hotel room apart.

  I understand that in movies words of bad news may echo in the thoughts, of characters, but this was happening to me in real life. I felt my foot begin to tap as I tried hard to distract myself from the erupting volcano of emotions in the pit of my stomach.

  "Zayn- please say something." i know I should've I really should've said something instead of giving up,I promise I would of if I knew what to say, but I felt my eyes  begin to water...I mean I know  I was about to cry but I just I couldn't  let Louis hear me cry..I had to be strong in his eyes.

 "Okay so I guess I'm talking to whoever  is on the phone?" Niall questions as I throw the phone to him. I walk to my bathroom and shut the door. Even though half of me was angry, I didn't feel like I had the right to be..so I just sat on the ground, with my back against the white door in my hotel room.

  Honestly I have everything, at the moment..I'm in a beautiful country, in a beautiful hotel room, with a absolutely goregous boy in my bed, and my best friend well he's on the verge on falling apart. As my face hit the palms of my hands so did my tears...Its not that I don't like crying or think its a horrible thing..Its just hard for me to stop once I start.

  You know, its like once you start to cry you find everything wrong in your life, just for validation that you have a reason to. For me it was my father and sisters dying, my mom beinging sick back in the U.K. and well now my best friend counting down the days until he can't hold on anymore.

  I sobbed and prayed Niall didn't hear me, because I didn't want to have to explain myself to him. I rise to my feet and decide to get in the shower. I know I was being a coward..but for now thats all I had in me, thats it.

   It may have been dramatic but I wasn't thinking straight, so I accidently got in the shower with my clothes on. I suppose it was better that way because.the water was cold, I was sad but not stupid..so I turn the water to warm and I finally began to peel my clothes of of my body. It was really hard to try and focus on one thing especially when everything seemed to be coming at me at once. I hear a knock on the door and I ignore it, It was Niall and he knocked three more times before he finally gives up.

  I felt bad for myself, and I needed to get it all out...the tears that ran down my face  mixed with the water...and washed down the drain and thats all I needed it to do....I need the tears to wash away. I could only stay in the shower for so long, so I finally turn the shower off and step out of it. 

    I decided not to look in the mirror, because I knew I needed a hair cut and since my hair was wet it'd look even longer, and I have no right to feel bad for myself because I have a best friend to uphold..he can't be alone.

  I wrap a towel around my waist and , just peek at myself in the mirror before I push the door open and make my way across the hotel room to my suitcase.

  "HAHAHA, my god your so dumb, its not like that..he just thinks it is." I see Niall on my laptop talking to someone.

  "Am, I interrupting something?" I hear Louis someone ask from the laptop with a smile in his voice, I really don't understand how he can be smiling right now.

  I drop my towel and slip into a pair of my briefs. "Uh no Zayn just um...walked out of the bathroom." Niall says when I make my way over to the night stand to set the alarm on my phone.

  "Oh the dick who pawned me off on you." I smile and shake my head at Louis' bitchy comment.

  When i sit on the bed and see that Louis is in my room eating take out on my bed. I could tell he was crying for a while..his eyes were red and puffy and there were tissues all around my pillows, I was so disgusted on the inside, I really wanted to just go through skype and rip his dick off, but I cant.

  "I have never, ever aloud you to eat in my bed." I say as I try hard not to cry again at the look of him, It was so weird how, horrible the turn of his life was going, yet the bright shine to his eyes still stayed relevant.

 "But I am so excuse me Niall, but Zayn Suck my ass." me, Niall and Louis..began to laugh.

  "I heard about your little proclomation of Love." louis says as he blows his noes.

  "Oh I wonder how you found that out." I ask as I look at Niall, Niall just looks back at me..he had a weird look on his face.

  " Harry, did actually..he reached out to me and apologized." I lifted a eyebrow up towards him, well the best I could on skype.

  "Fuck off, its not like that..he just talked to me about how to get on with life while having this stupid curse, actually when you guys get back he's going to take me to my doctors appointment to see what medication they're going to put me on." i nod, because once again I didn't know what to say.

  "mmmm first its medication then its bootycation." Niall says before, his face turns red. I just kiss his cheek quickly to let him know that although his joke wasn't funny it was cute.

  "awe screenshot!" Louis shouts. I roll my eyes, before I yawn..I felt kinda normal again...but it still felt like there was a huge fucking fat ass elephant in the room...and unfortunately it was H.I.V.

  "Goodnight Louis, it seems like Zayns tired." I tried to shake my head no but, I was interrupted by yet another Yawn escaping my lips.

  "Night baby boys..I love you both." and with that Louis was off of my laptop screen, and a sigh replaced a yawn

  "You have a beautiful soul." Niall says as he cuddles his head into my chest.

  I just sigh again, because I didn't deserve that comment. 

  "I love you." I wanted to say it back, but I couldn't get back into the routine..I've always felt like the more you say it the less it means..so I just kiss him instead.

  I switch the lamp  off, because I was tired and I had a unfortunate big day tommorow.

  "Oh yeah, Zayn.....I don't want you to do that scene tommorow." niall says in the dark of the room.

  "I have no choice..I signed a contract."  i whisper as my eyes fluttered shut, the weight and warmth of Niall making me more comfortable.

  "You do have a choice..." he didn't necesarilly specify what my choices were but..I knew what he was saying.

  "I do." i reply...but just because I know I do..doesn't mean I know which one to choose.

  "I hope that when you do choose, I'm what you choose." I pulled him into my chest.

  "Why would you make me choose between you and my job." I ask, I really was too tired for this but..it seemed necessary to talk about now.

  " You do know if you join, Carson doesn't have to be in the scene at all, and if were lucky Jake number 2 won't show up and It'll just be you and I." I say as  I feel his lips press against my chest and, the feeling of his free flying hair tickled my littered chin.

  "Or we can hide out in here tommorow, we can talk, and skype Louis and touch eachother..and  at 12:00 tommorow night we can make love to celebrate my birthday....That sounds a lot better." That plan was a lot better...a lot better.

 "and what about my job?" I ask again.

  "I'm the bosses son....fuck your job."

" A whole day with you...I don;'t know." i joke playfully.

 I feel him pull his self up so that he's level with me, and finally his lips form against mine, his tongue forced its way into my mouth, and went on a high speed exploration of my mouth, My worrys were muted for this 30 second mini makeout, and when he pulled away I was back in reality.

  "Sleep on it..and get back to me in the morning." Niall says before pecking my lips one more time, and returning to his spot with his head in my chest.

  Sleep on it.....theres a lot if things I need to sleep on..

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Quick Chapter to get rid of the cliff hanger..lol do you think Zayn should do the scene..or respect Nialls wishes.?