Lost in the action

What am i?

MATTS POV:

Well I couldn't wait for the place I was taking payton. I was just scared of what I had to tell her. She was gonna hate me so much. Their was no way I could pay her back and I wanted this night to be her favorite I wanted her to know how I really feel about her but when I tell her she's gonna be so upset.

I walked to my room and got ready out on my tie did my hair. I looked good.

PAYTONS POV:

I dressed causal. Skinny jeans and a tshirt that was hot pink and low cut but not to low. I'm not a slut ( Mallory ) well I had makeup on to hadn't used that in a while. The doctors took mine off when I came in passed out when I first met Matt . Oh Matt.. He was so special to me. KNOCK KNOCK.

I ran to my door.

Mom: "he's here at the door"

Me: "okay. I'll be out soon"

I shut the door. I guess I was being rude to my mom. But I need space. I leaned over to find my hand purse. When I found it in front of my mirror I leaned down to pick it up. An came up and stopped... I looked up at this girl. With oxygen tank needed in her life. And bottled up fluids about to explode. Hair was so messy and I just looked awful. I felt a tear drop. I felt like Matt was using me I had this in my stomach for a while. Like he's using me to make it seem like he's nice to his fans. I wiped the tear and sat down. I collapsed and just poured my eyes out. I was ugly. I said it who would want to be with me? Not someone like matt. KNOCK KNOCK. I wiped my tears and saw my makeup running. I got up and said hold on. I looked for my makeup remover. Then the door opened. I turned around not facing the door

Matt: "hey babe you coming?"

Me: "yeah uhm im almost done"

Matt:" alright"

He shut the door and sat on my bed.

Me:"uhm what r u doing?"

Matt:" waiting on you"

Me:"oh okay."

I stood their. For like 1 min. He finally asked me what I was doing. I turned around with my makeup still on my face.

He stood up quick and turned to me and rushed over and held me tight.

I pushed off and turned around facing the mirror.

Me:" Matt do you love me?"

Matt:" yes!! Why would you ask that?"

Me:"I just.. I just feel like.. Like why would someone like me end up with you. I mean come on' I'm practically a zombie."

Matt:"payton. I told you you wil lake it through this. I know exactly what your thinking. You think I'm just gonna leave you. Or I'm using you for fans. That's not true. I can see in your eyes. Your hurt and ever since me and hang out it's been different you light up my world. Stop trying to be better when your already good enough."

I ran to him I loved him so much.

I had news for him. Bad news I just didn't want to say it yet. Not tonight not tomorrow not the next day I just wanted to lay in his arms. I looked up and matt asked if I was ready and wiped my makeup off I told him I was.