boyfriend | fillie

seem like it's easy

My mind raced back and forth, I was with lilia in the kitchen of her beautiful modern styled house. She drank from some kind of fruity cooler and listened to me rant about. "What am I supposed to do?" I began to cry and cover my face with my hands, lilia reached over and held my shoulder tightly, almost too tightly because I felt the digging of her beige acrylics in my skin. "Hey hey, calm down millie." She had a look of sympathy on her face, I knew she felt bad for me. But she didn't know what I was going through? How could she even tell me to stay calm, lilia was a very sincere person, I mean it was a good personality trait of course. But then again she has sex with her step brother so there's clearly something going on up in her pretty little head that isn't sincere or right. "have you talked to Finn?" She took another sip from the alcoholic beverage, I screamed at her practically throwing my hands in the air "of course not!" She jumped a bit and furrowed her eyebrows at me, I sighed and looked down "I'm sorry." Lilia smiled at me "don't be sorry, I get it." How could she possibly get it? Suddenly we were interrupted by a loud yawn entering the room, I turned to face the tired boy who was Jaeden "why the fuck are you screaming?" He glared down at me and crossed his arms while leaning against the white wall beside him. "Piss off." I rolled my eyes and turned back to the blonde girl drinking her cooler.

Ever since I had left Jaeden for Finn, there was a harsh coldness between us. He wasn't rude to me at first, he was actually still very nice to me. But I made it obvious to him that I had chosen Finn and told him to 'hop off my dick and stop being such a goodie goodie', he didn't like that of course and immediately began to act cold to me. I didn't really care, I had slept with him once, and I had a feeling he was only nice to me that night so he could get in my pants and take advantage of the fact I was vulnerable at the time.

Jaeden scoffed and walked past me to the fridge behind lilia, as he walked by lilia, I saw him check her out, she had obviously noticed also and smirked to him. It made me extremely uncomfortable because I knew that after I'd leave, they'd probably be having sex right here in the kitchen. "Lilia, I should go anyways. I'll see you later" before she could reply, I left the room and walked out the door. I speed walked to Finn's house and banged on the door, hoping Finn would be home and smile at me when he saw me at the door, even though I knew the case wouldn't be happy. Instead his mother opened the door and smiled brightly at me, "millie! Oh my god come in" she moved aside so I could step inside "it's so nice to see you millie, gosh you've grown so much since I last saw you, you look so beautiful." I bit my tongue and gritted my teeth, a compliment. I just smiled and nodded and looked down "uh, thanks." She began to walk back into the laundry room which was right be the front door, I followed behind her "Finn isn't here right now, but I can call him to come home if you'd like" the brunette woman smiled at me as she started to fold clothes and put them in a laundry basket that was labeled "finnie", the wolfhard's liked to label everything they owned so they could keep track of what belonged to them. It made sense but also seemed like a huge waist of time. "Oh, no that's fine. If you wouldn't mind, I'd actually like to have a conversation with you" she turned to me and smiled as she held a white shirt below her waist, half folded. "Of course, I'd love to catch up with you." I smiled back and nodded, "let me just finish this laundry, you can go sit in Finn's room if you'd like." I nodded and waved to her before exiting the room and running upstairs to Finn's messy bedroom, I assumed his mom did all the chores around here, like cleaning his room.

I sat on the bed and looked around his room, I stopped looking when something had caught my eye on his desk. I stood up and slowly walked over to the cluttered desk, I picked up a black frame that contained a photo in it, it was a photo of Finn and I. I examined it closely and my lips parted a bit, in the photo, Finn had his arms swung around me and I had my arms hung low with a wide smile on my lips, I remembered taking this photo, in fact in was only just a few days ago. I smiled a bit at the photo when I heard someone walk in, I was afraid it might have been Finn, but then heard his mother speak. I sighed with relief and put the frame back down onto the desk. I walked over to her and sat next to her on the bed "so what did you wanna talk about Millie?" She looked over to me and smiled lightly "Well, I'm stressed. Very stressed." His mother nodded for me to continue and I got straight to point really quick.
"I'm pregnant."
The words stung in the air like fire and stabbed my heart like a dagger, I had found out a day or two ago, but assumed I was maybe a week or so in. She stayed quiet, not really knowing how to respond, she looked down then back up at me "does your mother know?" "No, she'd go bonkers if I told her. That's why I came to you." I smiled a bit, but she didn't smile back. "Oh, I see.." I was so afraid she would disapprove of me now, maybe she wouldn't like me anymore if she knew Finn and I were doing things that were that serious, of course she knew we had sex, but she only thought it had been once or twice. Obviously not enough times to get me pregnant. "I don't know what to do. I haven't told Finn, I'm too afraid he won't wanna see me anymore." She stopped me immediately and held both of my shoulders, kind of shaking me. "Millie, don't even say that. If he left you because of that, trust me, he'd never hear the end of it from me." I smiled at her comment and she smiled back to me, I liked Finn's mom just for this reason, she treated me like a person. My mother was never this nice to me, she was cold to me, like I wasn't even her child. "Millie, I'm not the best at giving advice, but I really think you should talk to Finn about this, I don't agree with you two having a child at this age of course, but things happen. And if you choose to have the baby, just know I'll be here to help you as much as you need." A tear rolled down my red cheeks and she wiped it away with her thumb, she smiled to me and kissed my forehead then got up and exited Finn's room before I could even say anything back.

At this point, I wasn't really sure what I was gonna do. If I had the baby, Finn's mother would help me unconditionally, but if I didn't have it, I'd live with the pain of knowing I let go of my baby's life. I didn't wanna have an abortion, it went against everything I stood for, of course I figured it someone was forced into having the child by accident then abortion is always a choice, but if you physically have a choice. Then you should always choose wisely, if you aren't ready to have the baby and end up getting pregnant, that's understandable, but I'd  much rather not. All of sudden, my thoughts were interrupted when Finn opened his door and saw me on the bed, deep in thought. He stood still then slowly shut the door with a puzzled look on his face "w-what are you doing here?" He walked over to me a bit and I stood up to look up to the tall boy a bit. "We need to talk, Finn."