Save you

Chapter 23

I fell asleep early that night, with little Rover cuddling up next to me. It was really cold in my room. I rolled over to see it was only 12 o’clock. I’m sure the boys were still awake, they always stayed up late.

I looked up to see my window was open, no wonder it was so damn cold. I got up and closed it leaving the room a bit warmer. I climbed back into bed pulling the duvet over me curling my feet up. I fluttered my eyes shut and started to drift back to sleep.

I heard my door creak open and peeled my eyes open to see who it was. The room was so dark all’s I could make out was the persons silhouette. They came closer and I could see tiny curls popping out from what must have been a beanie.

“Leila you awake?” He whispered. I didn’t say anything, just laid there. I wasn’t exactly on the best terms with him after all. “Okay…” He climbed into the bed and got under the covers.  “I have a feeling your awake you just don’t want to talk to me.” He chuckled pulling the blanket up. “I don’t blame you, I was a dick.”

I rolled over  turning my back to him and sighed. “I’m sorry though… it’s just frustrating. I know it’s hard for you… and I promise it will get better. I’m just a bit confused as well. I mean after all my best friend doesn’t remember me…” He trailed off. I heard him take in a deep breath of air. “I’m just sorry…” He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to his chest.

“I’m sorry to…” I mumbled turning to face him.

“For what?” He asked laughing a bit.

“I don’t know… I’m such a fucked up person and you have to deal with me.” I sighed closing my eyes. “My entire life is fucked up… I feel like you’re the only one out there that tries to fix it when you shouldn’t have to.”

“Leila, I have to. It’s my job. And you’re not fucked up, you’re perfect in your own fucked up way.” Harry laughed poking my nose.

“Uh thanks I think…” I giggled.

“Yeah, try and get some sleep okay?”

I nodded my head and rested it against Harry’s chest. I fluttered my eyes shut as sleep over came me once again.

“Love you Leila…” I heard Harry whisper softly. He kissed my head and I smiled to myself.

“Love you too Haz.”

*

I woke up the next morning to an empty space next to me. Where was Harry? I rolled over and looked at the clock seeing as it was 3 in the afternoon. Well then…. I kicked my feet over the bed side and stood up stretching a bit.

I walked over to the bathroom and unwrapped my hair from the ponytail. It fell down my shoulders and I smiled noticing it looked kind of nice today. I rinsed my face with some cold water trying to wake myself up from my groggy state.

“Leila are you awake yet?” I heard someone ask.
“Yeah just a minute!” I answered skipping out of the bathroom. I pulled the bathroom door open revealing a smiling Liam.

“Good Afternoon Leila, nice of you to wake up!” He laughed. I just giggled as I played with the loose strings on my tank top. “Anyway Harry was wondering what he should make for dinner tonight when your friend comes over?”

“Uh maybe just like pasta?” I said but it came out as more of a question.

“Sounds good! I think you and Zayn can take a quick trip to the bakery to get some bread, okay?” I nodded and turned around on my heel walking toward my dresser. I decided on a tan jumper and a pair of dark skinny jeans. I slipped on my converse and placed the tan beanie on my head. I looked at myself in the mirror deciding I looked decent enough to go out in public.

I put a coat of mascara on my eyelashes and a bit of lip gloss on. “Leila let’s go!” I heard Zayn shout from downstairs.

“Coming!” I ran down the stairs bouncing in front of Zayn.

“Okay you two, no sweets, get some good bread for the pasta. And Leila, NO pastries. Okay?” Harry said handing us some money.

“Mhm…” I said knowing I couldn’t resist. I loved sweet things. The bakery was a dangerous place for me to be in.

“I’m serious Leila!” He said chuckling a bit.

“Yep I know!” I said making my big eyes even bigger.

“Hey Leila pick me up something good.” Niall whispered in my ear as I was about to walk out the door. I giggled and winked at him as I trailed after Zayn.

We got into the car and the driver started on his way to the bakery.

“So how have you been feeling?” Zayn asked turning to face me.

“Better.” I smiled happily. Zayn and I never really talked much. I mean we were friends just not as close as I was with some of the other boys.

“Good, how are you and Harry?” He questioned scrunching up his nose.

“Good I guess. It’s weird… he knows almost everything about me and yet I know nothing about him.” I giggled. “He’s great though… sometimes he can be an asshole.”

“Yeah, he really loves you though. He just cares a lot about you. He wants to keep you safe and he gets frustrated cause you don’t have that same mind set as him. You do what you want and sometimes that confuses him, he just thinks everyone thinks like him.”

“Yeah I can tell.” I scoffed looking out the window.

“He really does love you Leila, I don’t know if you can tell but he does…” Zayn trailed off. Silence set in as I looked out the window at the passing buildings. “We all do.” I turned to face Zayn and he had a smile on his face and I knew he meant it.

No matter what my boys cared about me. Someone cared about me.