The difference between crushing and loving

Time part 1

A crush develops fast, while love grows over time
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Time ticks
Life moves with it
So it would only be natural for people to find other people..people who they like

Was it wrong for me to start hating her without any reason?
Yes. Yes it was. And yes it is.

Yana, a name that makes me think of pretty dresses, makeup, faint scent of perfume, smart, kind, adorable and popular but
A name that also reminds me that he was hers. Her long hair and the innocent glint in her eyes, her bracelets on her wrists, the way she traces her hands on his face before kissing him with pure innocence and love. The way she makes him blush just by hearing her voice or even her laugh.

I could see how he blushes, how he looks at her. She could feel his heart beating so quickly after he told her to feel his heart after Yana leaves.

I felt hurt, a never-ending-headache. Blood rushing up to my heart and leaving my hands shaky and cold. My tired eyes and dark circles staring into the mirror while holding a bottle of Celexa (citalopram). My headache is killing me. Like something is hitting the inside of my head with a mallet.

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I f*cking hate you.