Forever Boy (JBXAG TRADING PLACES SEQUEL)

Chapter 56

Jessica's POV

August 8th, 2023
12:03 am

Today is the officially the release day of my new album "Thank U, Next"! I could not be more fucking proud of this album.

I set up my phone to livestream on Instagram.

"Hi babies! Imma let y'all get on here real quick before we start the album descriptions. Justin, Layla & Fredo are with me, say hi y'all."

Everyone says hi & waves.

"We're just having a mini party celebrating the album. And while Layla is here..." I look behind me, to her on the couch.

"Yeah?" Layla responds.

"Will you open up for me on tour?"

Her jaw drops, "ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! OF COURSE I WILL." She runs over to me and gives me a huge hug from behind.

"If y'all didn't know, Layla, my best friend since forever, just released her first ever album, called "Layla", and it's amazing. I know y'all know "Havana" because it's blown up. She also has a single called "OMG", which is underrated, go listen."

"Oh my god, stop it, I love you." Layla says.

"I love you too! So I'm gonna start the song descriptions! I do this with each album I release because all my songs mean so much to me & I want to be open with y'all. We start off the album with one of my favorites, and one of the most meaningful to me, which is Imagine. It's about Justin & I obviously. I started this song a bit ago, but changed it up a bit and added more to it. My favorite line in the song is "Knew you were perfect, after the first kiss. Took a deep breath like "Ooh". Feels like forever, baby, I never thought it would be you." It just takes me back to that time when Justin & I shared our first kiss. I knew it in my mind & in my heart that he was the one. And of course, at that time, I had no idea it would ever be him. I also want to point out the line "Feel like we never act this regular.", Justin & I cant go out & be regular people. In these moments at home together, it sometimes feels weird to be acting like normal people, and doing things normal people do."

"This one is my favorite I think." Justin says behind me.

"Oh my god, I just remembered. When I first played the song for Justin, he goes, "Did you say, "Can you eat my vagina?"" I die laughing thinking about it. "I'm like, "Um, no? But obviously that's all you think about."

"Babe, does it not sound like that?"

"No, no it doesn't. You're about to make this another bacon & eggs situation with Thank U, Next. And on to the next song. Track 2 is "needy". I wrote this while I was pregnant. Well, started it when I was & finished later. When I was pregnant, I just felt so fucking needy, especially after I was basically put in bed rest & I was needing help with everything. Thank God, for Justin. I wouldn't have done it without him."

"You're welcome, babe." Justin says.

"I hate him." I giggle. "Just ignore his comments. Okay, so next is NASA. This is a song I wrote with Layla while I was pregnant. This one over here," I say pointing to Justin. "He was super up my ass everyday and wasn't letting me do things on my own, so I was like, bro gimme space. So I went to Layla's and then we wrote it the next day. It's so fun, honestly, and NASA themselves loves it."

"I had so much fun writing it with you, that was one of the first songs I wrote successfully." Layla says.

"And it's not your last. Track 4 is "bloodline". The beginning of the song is something Nonna had just randomly said and it was the funniest thing. So this song is about Justin. I wrote this hella long ago. Before Justin and I got back together for good, we were hooking up, and I didn't want anything serious, so I didn't want him back in life as a husband, I didn't want him in my bloodline, didn't want his kids. And now look at me, ahah. Very happily married to him & I have a baby with him. Crazy how life works."

I sip a take my rosé before doing the next one.

"Fake Smile" is a song I wrote after my birthday party. It was my first time going to a big crowded club since my anxiety started and I had a panick attack. I had to leave early. When I left, there were paparazzi everywhere. I faked a smile so people would think I'm alright. I didn't want the headlines to be some stupid shit like "Is Justin being abusive?" "Is she unhappy with him?", because it wouldn't be the case. You know how they are, if you don't look perfect, they'll makeup any bad headline they want, but now I'm like fuck a fake smile. I'm not perfect, no one is. I just don't give a fuck anymore."

I take another sip and move onto the next song.

"Alright, "Bad Idea". Um...this song I wrote while I was hooking up with Justin. Sean & I we're going through a rough patch at the time, and neither of us spoke out about it. The line "Imma call you over here to numb the pain." is me calling Justin over to take away the pain I was feeling from Sean & I's relationship."

"Those were some of the times, honestly." Justin says. "Sounds wrong to say, but sneaking around was so much fun."

"Honestly...it was. Okay, um, next, track 7, "make up". So, this song was inspired by me pranking Justin & got mad. So, yeah. He was screaming my name and it turned me on. Like when we make up, whew, it's hot. I love it when he ruins my make up, ya know, just sweating it all off. I need to shut up before I go far."

Another sip.

"The next song, "ghostin" is the most emotional song on the album. It's about my ex boyfriend. His name was Ryan, we were high school sweethearts until we drifted apart after he moved away. He did end up going back to Boca, but we were just friends. He was my first love. He died late last year. It's about me dealing with his death with Justin by my side...." I pause, getting emotional thinking about everything. "Um, yeah. I'm gonna leave that one there before I'm sobbing."

"Track 9 is called "in my head". It's a song I wrote about this boy I dated after Ryan. It was a super slow song, but I revamped it. The voicemail at the beginning of the song is from my good friend Doug. I still had this voicemail in my iCloud. Obviously, I never go through that. I was so in love with this boy that I was with, well so I thought. I had this version of him in my head, that he was such an angel, such a beautiful soul. I thought he was the one. He did end up breaking up with me. He didn't want all of me, like Justin does. He only wanted me for my looks, my lips. He almost took my virginity, but I didn't let that happen. And yes, Justin took it before y'all ask. My favorite line in the song "Gucci tennis shoes, runnin from your issues." was inspired by his one pair of Gucci shoes his parents got him that Christmas."

"Track 10, 7 rings. I didn't expect this song to blow up like it did. So basically, this song, I wrote with 6 of my bitches, Layla included. I wanted to have a fun night out with my girls in New York City. We got drunk, and went shopping in all of the luxury stores before they closed. We stopped into Tiffany's, literally minutes before they were closing, and I was like "Y'all, let's get matching rings.", so I bought them, then we went back to the apartment and wrote the song. It's definitely the most fun song on the album & it's definitely one of my top favorites."

"I wear mine everyday!" Layla says, showing her hand with the ring.

"I do too! On my right ring finger because, ya know, I'm married." I wink & point to the camera with the champagne glass in my hand.

"Track 11 is the title track, "Thank U, Next". It's about my exes, but y'all know that. The message is though, that because of them, I am a better person, so I say thank you. It's really simple & y'all know what it's about by now. So the next & final song on the album is, "Break Up With Your Girlfriend, I'm Bored." I wrote this when J was with the person who will not be mentioned. I was still mad at him, but I still wanted that dick, so, yeah."

"We're gonna fuck to that song later." Justin says in the back.

"Oh my god. Like I said, ignore him. Well, that's it. That's the album. Thank you for joining me tonight to celebrate. Thank you for listening to me & my music, it means the world. Im so forever grateful for all of your support. It means so much. Now it's vacation time! Woo! Alright, goodnight, my loves. Love y'all so much." I blew them a kiss before ending the stream.

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