The Liability

Chapter 12

Louisa's POV:

I wake up, but I'm not in the place I was before. I am in my room. I close my eyes and try to see if I'm dreaming, but when I open my eyes, nothings changed, except the figure looming cautiously at the back of my room.

"Hugo..." I let out in a whisper.
He walks over to me and sits on the side of my bed
"Listen I know you don't want to see me but l—"
I interrupt him before he can finish his sentence
"I'm sorry." I say in a quiet tone
He looks at me surprised.
"what the fuck are you apologizing for?" He says.
I throw my hand against my face in frustration, regaining my composure I continue.

"W-why did you push me away that night, but also why would let you kiss me back?"
He looks down at his feet.
I keep going
"And why, when you did... go straight up and sleep with Freya..?" I say, hurt and dejected. but I feel like the dumbest person ever for sounding jealous.

He looks at me with sadness, but then anger.
He stands up abruptly.
"How in the bloody hell do you know that!!"
"Julia came in to speak to me. I asked her what you were doing, because I felt bad for my words... she said you were busy in your room with Freya."

He looks embarrassed. But not for long.
"Yeah. And—? Your point?"
I turn away before I decide its not worth it.
Silence settles in the room for 5 minutes before he lets out a sigh.

I feel a hand rest on my shoulder. Instead of letting it sit, i take my small hand and wrap it around his, throwing it off.

He sighs again.
"What? What do you want me to say? I'm sorry I didn't want to sleep with you? I'm sorry I wanted to sleep with Freya, and I'm sorry I enjoyed it? What do you want damnit!!"

I turn around. My face stern and cold, I look into his soulless eyes, wondering if he'd always lacked empathy, or any sort of feelings... and i decided i had no reason to feel bad about anything i'd said. It was all true. I glare at him in disdain and disgust.

"You disgust me." I utter through clenched teeth.
He maniacally chuckles "I beg to differ, you weren't thinking that other night."

I'm now angry. I get up walking at him quickly and I raise my fist and swing it across hitting him in the nose.

I look at his angry face, holding his bloody nose, I manage to speak through the anger.

"Yeah, we all make mistakes don't we? Because that, was one of my worst ones. You stole my first kiss you asshole." I say with confidence and anger.

He looks a little confused and hurt. But i know better than to believe his emotions.

"You are an ass, a fucking heartless criminal who cannot keep his dick in his pants. You walk around like your the shit.. but have you ever wondered if people listen because they like you, or because they're fucking afraid. The only real people who care are Freya, and you're sister, and maybe Ricco because he is one of the nicest people."
I keep going, and he takes it.

"You act like you are entitled to something. Like that gun you have can speak volumes to your danger, but your a little coward. You put on a tough front because you're fucking lonely. I got news for you Hugo... everyone is fucking lonely, but we don't bitch about through our actions, its called decency and respect. Fucking take a crash course on it."
I sigh catching my breath. I fold my arms over my chest, satisfied with what I said.

He remains emotionless and calm.
"Is that all?"
My turn to laugh.
"No, i broke your nose. Go get that checked out"
Before he turns around i grab his open arm and pull him towards me... whispering in his ear.
"You are a terrible kisser by the way" and with that i drive my leg into his shin.
He looks at me amused and walks out.

I feel elated. Like i stood up to a bully.
But regardless, the thought of him and Freya makes me uncomfortable... uneasy and disappointed. Maybe I expect to much in people. Maybe that's where I go wrong.

I take a deep breath and flop on my bed staring at the ceiling... the high ceiling might I add.
And i notice something.
There are stars placed up there. I could've sworn they were not always there. Plus, how would someone know, or even want to?

Then I recall my own room, my escape. I had stood up on a chair placing stars similar to these all over all day, excited to see them glow at night.

I don't realize I'm smiling until I come out of recalling the memory. I turn to my side, exhausted, and let myself nap.