After the film, the boys felt sleepy, it was 11 AM and I still was so awake.
I can't get the scenes with blood out of my mind.
I said a simple bye to the boys and went upstairs.
All lights were off upstairs, my mind began to control me. What if I get killed. I tried to control myself but failed.
I ran towards my door as fast as I could and when I was finally in my room. I throwed the door behind me and ran to my bed like a little kid.
I had my eyes open and I was breathing heavily.
I sat up, cause I wanted to have a better view, I grabbed my phone and played some music, to make me calm down.
When I finally was sleepy enough, I maked myself comfortable and closed my eyes. Finally, I was asleep.
When I just closed my eyes taehyung, jimin and jungkook came upstairs.
Taehyung: "eyy boys, I am gonna check up on y/n."
Jikook: "yeah Tae"
Jimin: "you do you"
Jungkook: "see ya tomorrow"
Taehyung knocked on the door but ofcourse heard no reaction, he decided to go in. He was very calm with his moves. He opened the door with two hands, just to make sure to not make noise. When he was in he closed the door slow and steady.
He walked to me and saw me sleeping. I kinda was awake by him. He started talking and I became so calm.
His deep raspy voice, very soft but so intimidating.
Taehyung: "hello cutie, you look beautiful. Just remember that I love you, you can always talk to me, okay."
When he stopped talking, I felt his body leaning on to me. I felt his hot breath on my neck, it sended shivers down my body.
"Why is that so intimidating?"
I thought to myself.
Taehyung whispered in my ear. Very soft but enough to satisfy me. I was never so calm in my life.
Taehyung: "I love you, y/n"
He gave a peck on my earlobe, then on my cheek and lastly on my lips.
It felt like my world has stopped, his lips. I was slightly blushing, but because of the darkness in my room, you almost couldn't even see my face. As I thinked about the peck, my thoughts controlled me. I never saw him this soft. Maybe he openes up now.
When I thinked about the thoughts I just had, something came up in my mind.
There I was, again. Thinking about the stupid film. I knew this was gonna happen. The blood, the injuries, the dead body's, ughhh no. I'm scared af now.
I heard taehyung walking away but I managed to grab his hand, he stopped and turned around.
Taehyung: "did you heard and felt everything I did?"
Y/n: "yeah, and it was cute, but it's not because of that."
Tae walked to my bed again, and sat on it, he caressed my cheek and asked: "what is the problem y/n"
He asked it in a caring, warm, kind, sweet and charming way. I just felt safe.
I hesitated a bit but I answered: "I-I still t-think ab-about-t the film."
I stuttered and a tear was rolling down my cheek.
I wish taehyung didn't see my tear but because of the light outside, he could see one single tear rolling down my cheek.
When I answered, taehyung understood it immediately, he hugged me tightly and asked: "you want me to stay with you?"
I only could answer with a "pls"
He breaked the hug and said: "you sure?"
He already had his pajamas on and stepped into my bed.
We were facing each other. Heads almost touching. Lips so close. His heavy breath on me. My eyes were heavy again, I forgot the film and was almost asleep.
But it came up again. I opened my eyes wide and gasped, my breathing became uncontrollable. Taehyung noticed me and immediately holded my hand tight, he let go of my hand and hugged me.
Tae: "shhh, y/n, it's okay. Don't worry, It's all fake, you're safe"
His voice was again so soft and caring.
A tear rolled down my cheek. I was so damn scared but taehyung actually calmed me down a bit.
Y/n: "I can't forget it, ahhhhh. You guys are unbelievable. I just can't sleep"
Taehyung: "you wanna do something"
Y/n: "okay, but what, it's night"
Tae didn't said a word and just stepped out of bed, grabbed my hand and gave a sign to follow him.
I followed him and we came in a room. It was full of guns, stuff for boxing and more.
Tae turned the lights on
Taehyung: "okay, this room is sound proof, no one will hear anything. I'm gonna learn you how to fight, jungkook told me you sometimes need to help with missions. And you need more confidence"
Y/n: "okay true, but I don't think I have it in me."
Tae: "it's okay, I know you will do great"
There was a wall, and it got my attention, I walked to it, and taehyung exactly knew what I was gonna do.
I was facing the wall and taehyung stood on the side looking at me with a serious face.
My thoughts controlled me, the pain, no friends, lonely.
Y/n: "Am I useluss in this fucking world"
I screamed the last two words, I just felt angry. I have never had this feeling before.
Y/n mind: "Maybe taehyung wasn't the one who had to open up, it was me..."
