Bloodthirsty(KNJ)

12. Avoidance

Half an hour. That's how long she'd been sitting in her bed, gazing at nothing in particular, lost in thoughts. She hesitated between crying and screaming. Her heartbeat wasn't calming down either. Her mind was racing just as fast. Her imagination was doing things to her.

It wasn't the first time she had such dreams about Namjoon. This time though, it was too vivid and it had been going on for the last four days.

His lips, his fingers, his tong had all been doing things to her in her sleep and she couldn't take it anymore.  She had tried everything.

Going to the gym more.

Reading horror stories.

Working long hours.

But nothing helped. As soon as she closed her eyes, she had these dreams again, no matter how tired she was.

She thought that avoiding him was the best thing to do, but now she wasn't so sure.

He had stopped contacting her after two days of unanswered calls and messages. He didn't even come to her house to try to talk to her. She wasn't sure how to feel about that. He had the keys to her house after all. He probably didn't want to force things. Maybe he was giving her space...

But today was a special day, though. Would he contact her? Would he come over? Did she want him to come over?

She didn't even know what she wanted anymore. She missed him, but she was scared of seeing him. She needed to sort her feelings out first.

Who am I kidding? I know damn well what I'm feeling.

Yes, she did know her feelings. But she didn't know his and that's why she was so kin on avoiding him.

She was scared that he wouldn't like her back.

She was scared of losing him as a friend.

She was scared that nothing would ever be the same again...

She was being a coward, she knew that. But she didn't have a choice.

She couldn't face him just yet.

After getting ready for work, she went downstairs to eat her breakfast and she found Jungkook all ready for the day as well. He was pretty much done eating his cereals and was peeling a banana when he looked up to smile at her.

"Morning, noona."

"Hey Kookie."

"Are you feeling better now?"

"Better?"

"Are you in the mood to talk to hyung yet?"

She blushed at that and started making her breakfast.

"I don't know what happened between you two, but you need to sort it out. It's weird seeing you like this."

She sat next to him with her bowl full of cereal and milk and started eating. She felt him looking at her, but she ignored him. She wasn't in the mood to talk about Namjoon.

He kept watching her in silence, then he leaned and put his head on her shoulder.

"It's nothing bad, right?" He asked in a low voice.

She sighed and put her spoon down. Why was it so hard for her to resist this kid? Ever since they first met, he always did that to her. She had a soft spot for him. Actually, everyone around him did. No one could say no to him. They all spoiled him.

"It depends..."

She trailed off as she thought about it more. She wasn't sure if it was a good idea to confide in him. What if he told Namjoon? She wasn't ready for him to find out just yet.