Poetry Anthology

I'm sorry

A/N: so this isn't my poem but it's a snippet of one the realest songs I know when it comes to explaining how one feels when faced with depression. I was feeling really low and thought that someone out there might be too. So I thought to share this. Just so that you know you're not alone, and the way you're feeling now someone out there might be too. Don't make hasty decisions. You're loved by someone out there although you may not feel it. And if you are on the brink of suicide, let someone in. Talk, shout, cry. Do what ever you need to do to stay alive. Don't deny how you feel but fight it. And fight for you, no one else can. You matter enough to give yourself the chance. The world needs you for something. You are valuable. ♥️

Name of the song: I'm sorry by Joyner Lucas

(Oh and the lyrics might be a little botched. I didn't Google any of them. Just wrote as I heard them)

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Go 'head and call me a coward, say that I'm not strong because I'm not like you.
Go 'head and call me crazy cause I live in a maze, tell me how 'bout you?
I think I live in my head sometimes think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth.
Though I been losing my mind and I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes.
Cause I never been been happy with myself.
An I don't need no one feeling bad for me, tryna offer me pity and throw jabs at me.
Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me behind closed doors.
Just close the door lemme be by myself.
Just me and myself.
I'm tired of livin when, I cry, I heard it's easy to die.
I wanna see for myself and I know that sounds crazy to everyone else.
But I'm depressed as fuck.
Stressed as fuck.

Ain't no medicine that can cure with some tests and drugs.
I need...
I need extra love and that ain't even enough.
'Said that ain't even enough.
An where the fuck is God?
Damn.
Maybe I ain't believing enough but today we gon' see if he's real.
An if he is then I guess I'm probably going to hell.
Look I ain't wanna die like this.
I ain't picture my life like this.
They don't know what it's like like this.
Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this an laugh like you.
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you, will I finally fit in and maybe relax.
Like whoo.
Or would you feel lost without me? Cause honestly I think the world is better off without me.
And my mind's spinning.
This is the line finish.
Truth is I don't care how they feel about my feelings.
I made up my mind.
I'm going out like Robin Williams.
I guess I'm not the ordinary people of John Legend.

An I been suicidal since the day I was 9.
Shit.
Okay the day I was 9, I been tired of being bullied couldn't stay out the fire.
Grandma told me I should take it one day at time.
An dammit look at me now.

Look, so know it's a new day if you're probably reading this then it's probably too late.

*Gunshot*

Just make sure you tell my family,
it's okay.
I'm sorry.
But it's too late.
I'm sorry.
So much pain, you know me.
I don't wanna live to see another day.
I'm sorry.
But I can't stay.
I'm sorry.
So much pain, you know me.