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Chapter 10

1 Month later

As I woke up with two strong arms holding me, making me feel the safest and most wanted I've felt in a long time.

I sat up receiving a grumble from the sleeping Harry who no one could look so damn cute in the morning, with his ruffled hair.

"Come on baby we gotta get up or will be late"
"It's too early baby let's skip" Harry sat up only to pull me back down with him.
"I can't miss any more lessons" I argued back
"I'll get Moine to bring us notes and will work on it later"
"I can't"
"Baby please I.. I want you all to myself and plus I don't want you around all those other people I don't want you getting hurt."
He had a fair point for the last year since Dumbledore died and everyone blaming me even though I wasn't the one, many other students have thrown hexs at me or just full blown punched me in the face.

"And besides I don't want you wearing yourself out, I'm worried about you" Harry was finally up, but I knew there was no way of making him let me leave.
"Ok but only today promise"
"Promise" he attached our lips for a brief second before pulling me up and into the shower.

"I can wash my self Harry" once again Harry took it to himself to wash him, Harry loved caring for Draco washing his hair, checking his scars all of it.

"I know but I do it way better"
Draco scoffed as he allowed himself to be cleaned. Once they were both clean and dried, Harry dressed in some joggers not bothering to put a shirt on as Draco copied.

"You want some pancakes baby"
"No I'm not hungry" he hated eating especially in front of people, besides he hadn't eaten in two weeks so what would one more meal do.
"Baby you need to eat don't think I haven't realised what your doing"
"What do you mean"
"I watch you everyday in the great hall since we came back from Christmas break you skip meals you just sit there playing with you food barley touching it"
"I do eat you know"
"Well you haven't eaten in two weeks, at least not properly, so what do you want to eat?"

Draco excepted defeat, eating two pieces of bacon and half an egg.
"See that wasn't so hard?" Harry spoke as he washed the dishes.
"I guess not, oh by the way today Madam Pomfrey wants me to go for a check up"
"Ok why not go down after lunch gives you time to sort your stuff out"

"Well I was wondering if you would come with me, I hated going alone last time"
Harry walked over to Draco pulling him into a hug placing a kiss to his forehead. "Of course I will"
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After lunch, Well Harry eating and Draco playing with his half eaten sandwich, they headed down the the hospitalwing.
"Hello Mr.Malfoy oh and hello Mr.Potter" Madam Pomfrey greeted the two boys as she showed them to a bed, which Draco sat upon.

After being there for an hour or two of blood tests and health check they were allowed back to the room.

"That's good baby, your getting better" Harry sat on the sofa pulling Draco down onto his lap by his waist.
"Yeah it is, but I hate the whole eating thing" Draco now was under a charm which informed Madam Pomfrey and Harry if he hadn't eaten within 24 hours and which told them what and when he had eaten.

"Well I think if it's gets you better and healthy I don't care" Harry places kisses over his neck and jawline.
"Let's go to bed you must be exhausted"
Draco nodded as he was picked up and tucked into bed, with Harry next to him.

(Time skip TRIGGER WARNING)
This is a suicide scene please don't read if you can't just skip the rest of this chapter and move onto the next one.

It was around two in the morning, Draco wiggled his way out of Harry's grip, walking into the bath room locking and placing a locking spell on it as well.

He stood in front of the mirror looking at his disgusting body. He hated how he looked, every scar and mark every rib you could see, how could Harry bare to love him.

He looked at the mirror once again tears pouring down his face, he punched the mirror smashing it to piece as well as cutting the fist.

He fell to the floor crying, all these tears that hadn't spilled in over a month so why was he now so unhappy and unable to control his emotions.

He took hold of a piece of mirror looking at his skeleton like face. He pulled his sleeve up revealing the horrible mark that was on him. He plunged the mirror deep into his arms before dragging it across him arm, screaming in agony. He repeated this 3 times on each arm.

I was woken by the ear piercing scream that came from bathroom, I was alone in our bed. Draco. Where's Draco.

I jumped out of bed running to the bathroom.
"Draco! Draco Baby you in there" I yelled loud enough to wake the whole castle but merlin knows I don't care.

I slammed into the door but it wouldn't budge. I tried again and again I'm with all my force. Fuck it, within seconds the whole door turned to ash, exposing Draco unconscious on the floor covered in his blood.

"Draco" I rushed to his aid as I sent a protonus to Madam Pomfrey.

"Hey draco you need to stay with me please" he choked on his words clinging onto his arms trying to stop the blood.

What felt like hours later Madam Pomfrey and Professor McGonagall rushed into our room.

Madam Pomfrey rushing to Draco whispering healing spells as McGonagall rushed to Harry embracing him in a hug.

"What happened he was doing so well" Professor McGonagall spoke trying to calm Harry from the situation.
He didn't reply, he just sat there holding Draco's unconscious body in his lap.
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