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Chapter 11

(Recap to anyone who didn't read the last chapter, Draco wakes up at 2am going into the bathroom.
He hated how he looked how he was so skinny and all the scars on him. He tried to end his life and is found unconsciously Harry. And then is taken to the hospitalwing)

The next day Harry was woken by an house elf with a tray of food.
"Would master Potter like anything to eat?"The house elf spoke in a almost whisper.
Harry shook his head and took hold of Draco's hand once again.

He hadn't spoken since the night before, but in his head it was like a raging fight.
"It's all my fault, I'm the one to blame, I did this to him, I pushed him, it should be me not him, he shouldn't have to live like this"
He repeated these exact word over and over again since he saw Draco on the floor nearly dead.

Why didn't I wake up earlier, why did I let him do this I should of been there. I just couldn't understand it why didn't I see this coming I thought everything was going back to normal I thought he was getting better. I was the one who was meant to keep him safe.

"Good morning Harry" Madam Pomfrey had come in starting to heal Draco once again.
"You must go to class you can't miss any of the lessons"
No reply just a stern shake of his head, but that was enough for Madam Pomfrey.
"Ok well I will allow you to stay here but you must get some notes off someone"
She couldn't imagine what Harry was going through, to see a loved one nearly dead on the floor in a puddle of blood. And to feel as if it's your fault when it is nothing of the sort.

"Harry you must understand that this is in no way your fault, he was getting much better but sometimes people get triggered and that makes them do this" Madam Pomfrey places a hand on his shoulder "promise me you won't blame yourself, I think your the only reason why he is still here"

Harry sat there until Madam Pomfrey left. "Draco I'm so sorry, I should of been there I'm sorry for this it's my fault no matter what anyone says it is" he whispered into his ear almost so quiet that no one could hear, before a kiss to his forehead.

That night after dinner Hermoine and Ron rushed into the hospital-wing
"Harry where have you been all day I hadn't.."before she finished she saw Draco's limp body in the bed, rushing over to Harry hugging him.
"I'm so sorry Harry"
Harry just sat there in a hug he didn't deserve not saying a word.
"What happened mate" not even Ron got a reply. He just sat there like a statue only moving his thumb over Draco's hand into circles, he'd been doings that since that morning.

"Harry have you eaten today?" Hermoine was so worried for her friend, he hadn't been like this since Dumbledore died.

Harry shook his head as a tear fell from his eye, he hadn't allowed himself to cry because he thought of this as his doing but he couldn't hold it in anymore.
He sat their crying silently.
"Oh Harry it's ok. It's going to be ok" Hermoine still held him in her arms as Ron just stood there not really knowing what to do.
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Once Hermoine and Ron left Harry could see Draco twisting in his sleep, he was scared.

He took it upon him to climb into the bed and pull him into his embrace.
"It's ok Dray, I've got you I'm here" Harry whispered as he kissed Draco's forehead and neck. After a while he calmed down and Harry fell into a slightly more peaceful sleep than the night before.

The next day Harry woke with Draco resting on his chest, he layed there running his hand through his hair until Madam Pomfrey came into the room.

"Good morning Harry, you look well" he nodded as he went back to bushing the platinum blondes hair.

Madam Pomfrey went to check on someone students before coming back, doings a couple more tests.
"He's doings much better today, he will soon wake up in the next couple of hours or tomorrow"
Harry nodded as he placed a flannel on Draco's head cleaning his skin.

That night Draco still hadn't woken but Harry still refused to leave until he woke, he didn't care how much he will miss in lessons Draco was more important.

It was around 2am when he started to stir in his sleep.
"Hey draco, hey please wake"
After what felt like days although it was only about 20 minutes. Draco started to open his eyes.
"Hey baby hey your ok hey"Harry was now crying.
"Hey" Draco turned so he wasn't facing Harry.
"Baby I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"
"It's not you don't worry" Draco was now crying so much he couldn't speak.
Harry climbed into the bed pulling Draco into his embrace.
"Dray what's wrong"
"I.. i just.. I'm sorry"
"You don't need to be sorry"
Harry pulled Draco up as kissed his cheek.
"What happened baby please I need to know, talk to me"
"I just... I couldn't deal with it anymore"
"What couldn't you deal with, was it something I did"
"Oh no never you never do anything"
"Then what is it?"
"Well um.. I was in the ugh bathroom and ugh"
"Draco what happened"
Draco was now having a full on anxiety attack.
"Baby it's ok hey it's ok I'm here"
I held him as he cried, I didn't understand what could of happened for this to happen. I needed to know so that I could help him so I could protect him but I also knew I couldn't push him.
"It's ok, you don't need to tell me now"
"How about we get you back to your bed?"

He sat up as I wiped a tear from his cheek and picking him up.

He fell to sleep as we walk to the bedroom. Once we got there I layed him on the bed before laying next to him and pulling him into a protective hug.

"Good night my love"
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AHH I JUST LOVE THIS CHAPTER.
I'M REALLY BAD AT WRITING BUT I LOVE IT AT THE SAME TIME.