stay ~ Matt Espinosa Fanfiction

Sophie's POV

me and my boyfriend/Best friend,Matt Espinosa well we know everything about eachother except for my fear and the fact I'm suicidal my fear i of oblivion which is the condition or quality of being completely forgotten which I've been horrified of being forgotten

"M…Matt can you hurry please"I yell across the room "ok I'm running"he said,right now I'm freaking out because of my fear ever since I've been planning on telling Matt the two things like if I commit suicide would oblivion take it's place,a tear rolls down my face "baby what's wrong"Matt asks "my fear is and my huge secret which only Cameron knows about"I say "what is it you can tell me anything"he says "have you ever been scared of being completely forgotten,or wanna disappear and if you look at my wrists you'll understand"I say then show him the cuts I've previously left "I fear oblivion and I'm suicidal,and I have anxiety,I'm so sorry I kept that from you for the past ten years since we were eight years old I've been scared of oblivion"I say wiping my tears "why bae you know you'll never be forgotten,you never need to disappear,cutting never helped trust me I ended up in the hospital"he says I can see a tears in his eye's then one falls down I wipe it away "please don't cry Matt this is my problem I deserve my cuts,my fear,and my anxiety"I say

Matt's POV

I can't believe she wants to die so badly,her fear makes sense she doesn't know that I have the same one,I feel so bad for the one I love I never wanted this to happen to someone so amazing like her I love her so much I just don't want her to leave me I want her to stay strong and be with me,I see more tears roll down as she reads hate,hate,and more hate from on of my vines where I'm kissing her cuts she pointed out one the hit us both hard which said 'I can't believe that Matt picked a girl who can't even love her self which makes sense she doesn't deserve all of this she deserves to die'which caused Sophie to cry more and more "Sophie come here"I say and pat a spot on my lap for her,she sits down then all I do is hug her "I love you too much for you to leave,you're too perfect to be forgotten trust me you're beautiful and perfect"I say looking in her eye's which were red from crying for so long,I peck her lips and she kisses back we spent the rest of the night cuddling

a/n sowwy this was kinda sad for a first chapter I am listening to oblivion by Bastille and I actually fear oblivion so yea