stay ~ Matt Espinosa Fanfiction

08 -Not Fine

Sapphire's POV

                              -4 months later-

I can't believe that I am still here like are you fucking me I read my hate 'kill yourself slut' I replied 'I'll keep trying' and I got a response 'good I'll never be sorry or sad' and I replied 'thank you idc if you miss me because I'll be happy wherever I go' I decided to do a cover of Dark Enough by Amanda Lopiccolo "how does someone so loving learn to hate her own guts,drawing a picture on her arms with blade as if mind isn't dark enough"I sing and Sammy comes home "hey babe"he says while I've been crying about not being enough and still crying Sam has been on tour for over 4months and I needed him but he wasn't there and he noticed my cuts and burns "show me your scars"he says "But……Why"I asked "I want to see how many times you needed me and I wasn't there"he says and a tear streams down his cheek I show him "I wasn't here for you about over 100 times"he said feeling guilty "it's okay I'm fine,tired,and Broken I just really needed someone and now I do"I say sobbing "baby look at me,I love you and nothing will stop me from loving you,and I'll never let anyone or anything hurt you I promise"he says he kissed me but I didn't kiss back "baby I'm telling you the truth I will do anything,walk and number of miles just to be with you and see your beautiful face"he says and I finally agree with him and I make a YouTube video "hey whats up my little nerds it's Sapphire and I'm doing a cover of In Case By Demi Lovato this song made me cry over the time Sammy went on tour come here Sam"I say and he pops his little head over so it was in the frame "and this is the first time he will ever hear my walrus voice sing "The pictures in my pocket are faded from the washer I can just barely make up your face,The food you saved for later in my refrigerator its been too long since later never came.I know one day eventually,yeah I know one day I'll have to let it all go,but I keep it just in case,yeah I keep it just in case"I start to sing "Strong enough to leave you,but weak enough to need you,and cared enough to let you walk away"I sing after that "bye babes love you see you next Friday"I say then "baby come cuddle you can't cuddle alone it's impossible"Sam yells from upstairs "Jesus Christ boy calm down and nothing is impossible"I yell back laughing. I go cuddle "I love you so much baby"he says "I love you even more a.k.a to infinity"I say "ok ok"he says chuckling "shut the fuck up"I say laughing "asshole"he says and we fell asleep in eachothers arms

A/n hiiiii guys I'm back Fucking finally sorry I wasn't posting I have school and other things but love you baes