(BTS) Let Go

Chapter 32: Giving Up

V POV

"Im sorry but i can't do anything. I can't help" he said and walk away

I can't stop the pain!!! I am not giving up..

I run to him and stop him

"You have too" i said while loooking at his eyes

"I don't young man! My time in that world has ended. Its time for me to rest" he said  to me while looking at my eyes like his telling  me that no matter what i do i can't change his mind..

"I love her! The moment that i saw her walking out of the garden is the moment my heart fell for her. At first i thought that i was just a puppy love. But then i realise that it was not the  moment that she said to let her go. She didn't want to be surrounded by people who is fake.  I tell her how i feel although it was accident i still confess to her. Hoping that i don't scare her away."

I said while smiling at the memory i have with her

"She follow me and tell that shes giving me a chance. It was the best moment in my life. Then that day came. They took her away from me. I tried to help her but i can't. Theres too many enemy that  blocking my way."

I said while trying not to cry. I've been crying lately because of her!!

"Im sorry  young man. But even if i want to help i just can't. Im just a spirit and i can't do anything"

The moment that i heard that words my whole world crumbled into pieces. I cant live without her.

"If that so!! Then i have no choice"

I said and look around. Maybe this is the best place to die. I can live in here with a bubble to help me bring back the past

I smile at them. They are my family. I love them but it's not enough. Its not enough to hold me back.

Im a type of person that always see the positive in every negative situation. That can see the light inside the darkness. That can make funny jokes in a serious situation

But right now its different. Because the positive thing in my life is gone. The lightness in my soul has disappear

And i don't know what to do anymore. I wanted to end this pain inside of me. I wanted to  see her, to talk to her, to hug her.

But the only way i can do that is when i die. I know she might get mad because of my decision.  But i can't hold anymore

I smile to them

To Jin who became my oldest brother who is always there when i need him. I always want to hear his own dad jokes. He has the most hilarious laugh you can heard of

To Suga who always join me in my craziness. I know what you think. Suga the serious type? Yes The Serious type Suga is a soft hearted guy

To RM who guide me in my journey as a prince. His like my father. Always scolding me when i did something wrong. His always there to remind me that i can still be me

To J-hope who take the role of being the sunshine. His always there to brighten up  my mood. His always the first one to notice when im in a bad mood

To Jimin. My best buddy. My best gamer buddy. His like my twin brother in a way how we both like chocolate ice cream or how we eat thr ramen.

And to Jungkook who always stay by my side no matter what happen. He always laugh at me when i did something hilarious

To the girl's... i treat them like my sisters.

To my twin Kianna. I hope she forgive me

I sighed i made my choice

I create an ice sword and stab my self

I saw them running at me. Shouting at me but all i can do is smile.

Finally i can see her. We can be together this time

I welcome the darkness. My body feel numb i close my eyes but i know that someone is trying to stop the bleeding in my wound

Someone is shaking me and someone is telling me not to give up. But i made my mind up!!

No one can heal me. That sword is made to kill its victim. It will not allow someone to heal the wound it makes. It is the special ability of my soul swords

I smile and take the last breath my life will have. The last beat my heart will made. And my last thought my mind will give. Finally i can see her again