(BTS) Let Go

Chapter 61: Blood, Sweet and Tears

Catherine POV

I stared at his body silently cursing my self because i let my guard down!

I know how much it hurts for them to see Jin laying on this coffin lifeless but it is like 100× more hard for me because the person who did this is the same person i look up.

I look at Kate! Who is quiet the whole time. I can't remember when was the last time she said a word or let a sound out of her mouth

"Cath" V called me but i didn't give him my attention as i look up to the sky only to see a butterfly

Its funny how i laugh and tease him about his line in their song! How he sing one of the line in Let Go

Is it meant to be like this!? It hurts so much! I never appreciate his effort on making me smile, his dad jokes and i used to tell him how much i hate it

But now i want to hear it. I want to see him laugh at his own jokes. Fight with V who is casually stealing his food or get scolded by Jungkook because of his clumsiness

I miss my big brother so much. I miss him! I miss my Jin.

"Jin wake up" said by Kiana who is now crying!

I look away because i might broke down again! I need to stop mourning. I need a revenge

"Cath i know how much it hurts! Remember when Kate died! You were one of these people who help me gather my self. So let it out! Cry, Scream or do anything to lessen the pain"-Jimin said while hugging me but i back away

He can't understand me. No one will.

"You can never understand me Jimin. You just can't because at the very first place Kate died because of the dark king but Jin died because of the women he loved. Because of the women i look up as a sister. And you will never understand it the pain of lossing your brother and the pain i got because she betrayed me"

I said to him with tears flowing down my eyes. I can't stop them. I can't sto this tears and so i let it go

I cried
I scream

And they are just standing watching me. And when the time i calm a little my hand is bleeding and my forehead is sweeting and my tears are now dry but it didn't lessen the pain.

I look up to see them. Watching me with sadness and tears. Then i see hope.

Just maybe i can bring him back
Just maybe its not yet too late
Maybe i can get another chance
Maybe i can hear his voice again
Maybe i can see him looking at the mirror admiring how handsome he is

I just need to talk to them. I just need to see them. They help Jimin and maybe they can help me too.

No. They will help me.

I smile as i look at Kate! They bring back Kate and they will bring back Jin no matter what happen

I will bring you back
Over my Blood Sweet and Tears