The Pretenders: Taeil smut

12 - Déjà vu

You didn't know what was going on, the feeling you knew we'll came back, you felt insecure, unsafe, just like when you were left with Jaehyun.
You knew damn well your little happiness won't last long.
He was capable of anything, he always got what he wanted and what he wanted was you.
Now all you got is mad Taeil in front of you fidgeting with letter in his hand.

"Y/n what do you mean by that?" - Taeil asked clearly shocked from the sudden confession of you possibly being pregnant
"Taeil I don't know, I don't know."
"It's okay, we'll talk about it later, you're tired. »
Even now he seemed to be taking a good care of everything, when in fact inside he was going through a lot.
There were certain problems that you never knew about as he hid it from you and now it seems to be coming back at him like a boomerang.
Jaehyun was his problem, something he was the most afraid of.

You soon decided to head to bed and fall asleep meanwhile Taeil opened a bottle of some whiskey and poured it down and as fast as it got to the glass it disappeared even quicker.
He was stressed out, as when he finally started to believe you both got out of the problems that's when they started to grow even bigger, the other thing that worried him more was you mumbling something about pregnancy.
As much as he wanted to be happy about it he knew damn well the chance that he was a father was exactly the same as it could be Jaehyun as well.
He knew Jaehyun forced you to have sex with him, he knew about it and that's what killed him the most, the thought that it was all his fault you had to get through all of it.
The truth is, he never told you what was the reason him and Jaehyun were probably the biggest rivals you ever knew, what was the reason Jaehyun hated Taeil.

As he was about to down another glass he heard a weird noise coming from the bedroom.
He heads there as soon as possible and sees you crying on the floor.

« Why are you crying? » - he asks coming closer to you and intertwining hands with you.
« I am scared. » - you managed to spit out but all Taeil could do at this point was to hug you tight, because he was scared as well, to him it felt like a déjà vu.
"Why does it have to be this way Taeil?" - you asked, but you didn't get any response from him
"Taeil I feel like you hide something from me, I don't know why I just feel like it is this way."
He takes both of your hands and looks you deep in the eyes and says with tears in his eyes:
"There's a lot of things you don't know about but it's only to protect you, one day I'll tell you about everything, but for now I have to keep it for myself." - he said as you wiped tears off his cheeks.
The soft look you gave him made him melt inside a little.

You both laid down in bed about to sleep when he finally finds the courage to ask you something;
"Could it be true that you're... you know, pregnant?"
You remain silent and have absolutely no idea what to tell him.
"Y/n?"
"I am not sure, it looks like I am but..." - when you finally were about to say what worries you the most you had to stop, as you felt what you'd say would hurt him, a lot.
"Y/n you know we need to. Talk about it sooner or later?"
"I know but we still don't know if I am pregnant or not." - you said turning your back to the other side finally facing him and weakly smiling
"No matter what happens, remember I love you."
"I love you too but everything is so complicated lately, I am afraid to be happy."
"I want you to be happy, even if we didn't plan it I still want you to be happy, cause I already am." - he said as images of him being a father and across his head as not only you'd be pregnant but the father of the baby you possibly carried in you could be Jaehyun - somebody who wouldn't think twice to hurt you to et what he wants, just for the sake of his own revenge on Taeil, little did you know you were part of it and he sadly knew about it, all he wanted right now was to make sure you were safe.

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AU: Short update aka. Filling chapter because big things are coming.
I might not be as active as I was before cause I am leaving to Korea soon and I
M want to live the best of the best.
I'll try to update anyways but I am afraid i won't be this active as I was before.
Once I am back I'll drop the chapter I can't honestly wait to publish.
Peace