A Ripple in the forest

Chapter one

Song: I only want to be with you by Dusty Springfield
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My dearest love,

I tried. I tried so damn hard. I go back there every day trying to find you. Sometimes I convince myself that I can hear you calling my name. That you are searching for me as well.

I know you are real. The hole you left in my heart is a beating reminder every fucking second of the day.

Yet the very thought that what they say is true, breaks my heart. They say that I was kidnapped by a dangerous group of fugitives for three years, that I am experiencing Stockholm syndrome.

The psychiatrists say that I made the whole mother fucking thing up. That you never loved me, that I was drugged and your entire species is made up.

I'll give the government one thing, they know how to make people sound completely insane. Hell, I would have called myself insane if I didn't experience it first hand.

So my love, my heart, my soul. If you somehow, in this messed up world, are reading this. I want you to know that I didn't do this because of you, don't blame yourself, for we will meet again. Even death can't separate us, even destiny can't.

I just can't live in a life where you aren't in it.

So I won't.

Love, your Seraphina

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24th May, 2017
Ontario, Canada

"Nooo. They didn't!" Micah yells as she stuffs her face in a pillow trying to muffle her laughs.

I nod and scrunch up my face.

"I didn't know they would be visiting okay!! Jeez, it's not like they didn't know I was having sex! I mean I am 22 years old. Plus it was with my Fiancé, big surprise" I add as I grab the bag of popcorn from the microwave.

"I think I would die of embarrassment if my parents came to my apartment when I was having sex," Micah falls onto the couch dramatically and turns on the TV.

"Yeah, tell me about it" I mumble as I join her.

She shakes her head and laughs.

"I feel actual pity for you. I mean they saw everything! Why did you give them a spare key again?" She scrunches up her face as she imagines the scene.

I look down at my hands as my face burns with embarrassment.

"In case I lost mine" I mumble to my hands as I play with them.

"You couldn't have given them to me or Adam?  Come on! You probably scarred your poor dad for life. I get that they are your go to support system and all but still, Ser!" She explains as she imagines my most traumatising memory.

We make eye contact and look at each other for a long pause then burst out laughing. I have to stop when my rib cage protests from pain and my eyes run.

A ugly snorting sounds leaves Micah's mouth but this only causes me to start laughing again.

"Okay okay. We should stop" I say seriously but start to laugh again when I see Mic's cheeks stretched from the funny faces she's making to stop laughing.

I shake my heading laughing while I reach for the remote.

"Ooo Twilight!! Pick that one" Micah screams an octave to high when she sees the twilight cover page on Netflix.

"No need to burst my ear drum woman" I mumble.

"Edwards so dreamy! Yummm!" Micah exaggerates.

I shake my head and rebut.