If you... | Jennie Kim X Male Reader--Blackpink fanfic

CHAPTER 15 : VOMIT

Y/N's POV

My thought was wrong..

I thought by telling her the truth.. we gonna be okay.. but nah.. she's avoiding me.. all the time..

Me used to be cheerful person ..

But i became vice versa.. since my day turn to the darkness.. it feels like i walked into a darkness with my eyes open.. she's my light.. but i lose her.. and thats how i feel when i lose her..

But the moment i saw her move on.. and happy with someone else..

While staring at her from her..

I said something... even she not gonna hear me.. i still keep talking while looking at her from far..

How about you?
Are you really fine?
Our break up is here..
I should forget you but it's not easy..

Flashback

The moment that i know she's not coming back home .. i took my car key and start to drive away..

I didnt care how fast i drive..

I just hope that she's gonna be okay..

"Please find her for me, Y/N.. im begging you.."

"I know you guys cant be together right now.. but im begging you.."

"Why me?"

"Cause i know you still love her even though you cant have her ..yet.."

Her parents plead me.. begging me.. how can i say No to them?

I was being taught..

Never volunteered and never say no..

And here i found myself speed up my driving..

I cant find her though..

Where else she go?

I cant even reach her phone call..

Or maybe..

Our park..

Without hesitation i make my way to the park.. the park that we used to date before..

As i drive my car reaching the place... i saw a familiar figure..

Long black hair.. walking with lowering head.. walking aimlessly at the centre of the road..
Maybe because of what they said its true.. 'you know your lover well if you really love her..'

I stopped my car.. roll over the window.

"JENNIE !!"

"JENNIE !!"

Geez she's not even hearing me..

I get off from the car

Yelling her name again..

But still the same..

My eyes widened in horror when i saw a car approaching towards her..
Not even dare to slow down the driving..

I cant think any solution anymore..

I run towards her..

I just think one think right now..

I dont want her to get stuck with me forever..

And thats it..

I pushed her from the road and

There..

I feel myself being thrown.. as the car hit me.. make me being thrown away...

I cant think what should i do at this moment..

But i just let my body controlling my mind..

I let my body rolling over along the road before my head hit something hard..

Before i totally blackout..

At least she's okay..

End flashback

*retching*

I felt dizzy out of sudden..

Not a normal dizzy.. but terrible headache..

That make vomit on the sink..

The sound as it hits the sink and just trickle everywhere.. echoing the bathroom..

Fortunately she's at the girls' place..

Cause yeah i dont want her to throw me multiple questions..

I jog to downstairs once i wash up myself..

Drying myself with towel and i flinched when i saw Soobin at the living room while holding an envelope..

"What you doing at my house Soobin?"

"What the hell you trying to hide again Y/N?!"

I never see this side of Soobin.. his face turn to red.. and thats how usual calm person getting mad..

"Explain yourself!" He throw the envelope on the coffee table.

Why didn't I know About the weight of sadness ?