6:45pm
I was eating my food quickly while watching a romance movie with my mom. It was really getting intense and I had no idea what was to come next for the girl.
Soon the movie was over and my mom made me help clean up with her and I did. You must be wondering why i was so stuck on Joshua?
I have no idea
He would flirt and grab on me constantly but we never mentioned it or spoke about it. We both knew what was up though well I thought we did. So I thought we'd never have an issue until yesterday after Valentine's day Gabrielle posted there one year anniversary.
I felt terrible but jealous
We had a day off for Valentine's Day and the next day I showed up wanting to see him because I looked forward to see him everyday but he didn't even show up. So when later on that day after school yesterday I saw that post it killed me.
So you can see why it's hard for me to just stop talking to him. Ever since the beginning of his first day we hit it off and became friends but we would flirt here and there.
He even acted like I was his girl but now I'm thinking did I think to deep into everything ?
I was now done cleaning up and headed into my room to find three unread messages Drea sent to me.
Drea 🦋: how u feeling ?
Sent at 5:27pmDrea 🦋: I'm here for u Amiga <33
Sent at 5:45pmMe: thank u for thinking about me, I'm holding up good 😌💕
Delivered now !I began to do some studying before it officially turned eight o clock when I heard a light knock. I got up from my bed and opened it to see Fenix and Twan.
"What" I asked confused toward Twan because he had a very serious face
I than looked down and saw he gave me that look because I was just in a sports bra. He really acted as if I had a big chest but I grabbed a hoodie and came out my room to see what they wanted, Fenix was there too.
"What's up" I asked interrupting a heated conversation ?
"Fenni wanna ask you sum" he pushed Fenix and rushed into his room
"I need a favour" he scratched the back of his head
"Like" I raised a brow
"You were right" he sighed
"Ooh I'm right" I smirked
"About what though" I got serious being curious now
"Tray and all"
"Wait what happened" I got worried
"He hit me up and I let him know it was all Jayla but like she's saying we were secretly dating and I kind of said it wasn't true and that we urmmm" he mumbled the last part
"What did you say in the last part" I asked knowing it must've been the worst part
"That me and you date" he blushed sheepishly
"YOU WH" he quickly shut my mouth and sighed shutting his eyes
"That we date" I asked softly and he nodded
"Fenni whyyyy" I whined and he shrugged
"I'm in the 12th grade and your nine teen though" I reminded him
"Its pretend so why would that matter plus it's just two years apart but cmon please" he pleaded
"You're crazy" I walked off shutting my door and locking it
Why does my life have to be complicated and full with idiots. After studying and it turned 9:45pm I got out my room and knocked on Twan door.
"Can you please help Fen-"
"I will and we'll have to talk more about the situation let Fenix know" I quickly said and headed back to my room.
Drea 🦋: we'll see how tmrw goes with that mf 😑
Sent at 9:32pmMe: I honestly don't know what to do
Drea 🦋: just call him out when he grabs on you
Me: it's hard too
Me: like I feel bad
Drea 🦋: HOW CAN YOU FEEL BAD
Me: 🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️🤷🏽♀️
Drea 🦋: go to sleep
Drea 🦋: will talk more tmrw
Drea 🦋: ask your mom if u can come ova tmrw
Me: I'll ask
Me: gn ❣
Seen at 9:52pmI knew she didn't reply because I irritated her with my calmness and not wanting to do anything about Joshua.
She was going to freak when I told her about the Fenix situation. I did have a crush on him back then but ever since I met Joshua I been distracted and it kind of went away.
To get all my feelings out that night I pressed my simp playlist and just stayed in bed overthinking. I got a couple notifications but I decided to sleep listening to music instead of checking.