3:52pm
"So the cute guy wasn't who pulled you away" Drea asked and I replied with a yeah.
"And that's not even it" I said bitterly
"Pues spill amiga" she urged me over the phone, we could've been hanging out but I completely forgot to ask my mom yesterday. I would ask her since she's not working today but to tell you the truth she was mad and I was scared.
"So after class when I said that I had a boyfriend and all he was like ' hey Ashanti how ya know' " I impersonated his voice weirdly but I didn't add the part where him not calling me by my nickname made me feel sad , how dumb of I.
"Than I told him how Gabrielle was in our school and how we been followed each other on insta. I was also like boy you posted it too, now get this he thought he blocked me from viewing his story, he didn't say so but I just know it. But he really acted like he didn't care and maybe he doesn't but ugh" I sighed laying back down
"Damn. Sucks because you both neither ever admitted how y'all had feelings" she sighed
"I believe I caught feelings while he acted"
"Nah nah he caught feelings for sure, dude never let's you near any guy" she pointed out and I formed a small smile, curse this crush.
"Doesn't matter he has a girl" I sighed rubbing my forehead
"And now you have Fenix" she giggled
"Make Fenix come to the game for real, rub it in that carbón face chica, revenge" she laughed evily on the other side of the line.
"We'll see anyway what's up with you" I asked trying not to over think everything right now
"Not much just been chilling but tomorrow the church my mom goes to has a cute ass vato"
"Remind me what's a vato" I laughed
"Jus another way to say a guy or homie either one"
"Don't change the subject on me though, how ya feelin like really feelin" she asked
"I'll be fine, it's just a crush chica" I copied her, her Latina side was cool to see. I was a mixed girl both black and Mexican but my Mexican side didn't really rub off. My African American side did which I loved to embrace but I wish I had more opportunities to embrace the other side which talking to Drea helped with.
"Making fun of me" she said offended in a joking matter
"Whattttt never"
"Home girl I'll hit your line later my ma acting up" she groaned making me smile soft.
"Yaaaaa? La casa no se limpia solar" her mom yelled
"You should probably go" I cracked up
"Alright I'll text you in a bit" she said before hanging up.
The phone call made me think a lot, did he like me?
Would he leave her for me? Ugh. Why would I even think that?! Joshua should of never acted like he was single. Did no one notice how he would act toward me?
What if someone tells Gabriella ?
I quickly got up and looked at my face in the small mirrow by my bed. Why did I always get into situationships? History truly repeats. But the last time this happened it wasn't so deep it didn't go for this long.
I really liked the dude.
I looked at the pimple scar that was on my cheek sighing, Gabriella was so pretty. I couldn't compete and I shouldn't have to either.
I looked away from myself not wanting to judge myself anymore. It's time to go to my dentist appointment soon so I put on some sweats and headed down stairs. My mom was there still arguing on the phone with my dad. Why didn't they just get a divorce ?
I pointed at my phone that showed the time and she nodded, "honey I'm taking Ashanti to the dentist". Why act as if your fine momma?
"So how was school" she asked grabbing the keys off the counter and heading out.
"Alright I guess" I shrugged getting into the car
"You guess? What does that even mean I mean you was there right" she asked and I laughed nodding
"It was just boring, tiring, anything but entertaining"
"Least it's Friday but baby it's school it's for your future you decide if you want the best and you act out on it" she looked me over and I nodded and looked out the window.
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I've had this gem hidden for a cool min hope y'all enjoyed 8)
