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Remember Steven and the Stevens?

Remember Steven and the Stevens? If you don't, I don't blame you, it's not all that memorable to be perfectly honest.

But watching it again for the first time since after it first aired made me think. This boy has a textbooks worth of mental issues he keeps hidden behind that smile and cheerful attitude, but I got to say this episode probably should've screwed with him the most, us as well.

Think about it, the Steven we knew from episode one and all the way up till then literally died, this is not our original Steven, that's the part that screws with me at least.

The bad part for Steven's psyche is the fact that he literally watched himself die. Not even just once, he saw at least 40 Stevens die right in front of him, one of them even begging him for help, knowing he was going to die.

Now to screw with us again, think about if that happened now, if we watched our current Steven that we have come to know and love over these past years die.

That Steven that was begging for help, that wasn't just some hologram or something, you literally saw Steven, knowing he was going to die, begging for our Steven to help him.

I don't know, I mean the way our original Steven was yelling as he died, that implies that it hurts too. So we just watched our little Steven die a painful death, and what we feel about that can't even begin to compare to what he must've felt.

Imagine watching yourself die right in front of you, that would mess anyone up. But as always, he put on his smile and acted like nothing was wrong, instead he was somewhat venting in his Beachapalooza song, talking about how he watched himself die.

I think that was probably the most screwed up thing he had to witness, but knowing him, he cares more about others, so it probably didn't effect him as much as say, watching someone get corrupted right in front of you, or stabbing your new friend in the gut because she wants to kill you, or even throwing a Ruby that youvseemed to come to like, off into space far away from her team.

Honestly this kid has gone through too much in his life, it sucks that he couldn't even get a single day in for himself after he fixed everything, cause in the end, that's his life.

His mother had ruined the lives of so many, so through out the first story of this hopefully many story universe, Gems wanted him dead for something that he had NOTHING to do with, he didn't even exist at the time of his mother's little war, but he had to suffer for her actions anyway.

Now, whatever Spinel's (movie Gem) motivation, she's after him personally, and I feel like there will be more coming for him after her. He will never get a break, no mater how much he deserves and needs it.

Eventually, even if he gets the chance to have one, he still won't let himself, cause every time things seem like they're all calm and it's his happily ever after, there's just another storm waiting to blow that away.