11-05
Simon:
You fought with Soleil?
You:
Why? Are you teaming up against me? Haha
Simon:
Wtf? You know Soleil won't be that low
You:
I know
Simon:
So what's the shit all about? Why are you mad with each other?
You:
She's mad at me, I'm not
Simon:
Then what's your shit? Both of you ain't mad yet you won't talk?
You:
She's not talking to me
Simon:
Well she said something like, 'I'll talk to her once she knack some sense on herself'
You:
I'm really messed up, ain't I?
Simon:
What really happened? Why did you guys fight?
You:
Six
Simon:
Oh
Why is Soleil mad then?
You:
I didn't tell her my reason
Simon:
Wtf
I never like agreeing with you but you completely fucked up
You:
I know :)
Simon:
Why didn't you tell her?
You:
Same reasons
Simon:
But she's your fucking bestfriend!
What the fuck is wrong with you?!
You:
I know I'm disappointing
Simon:
The fuck?!
I understand your fucking deal about being afraid on getting fucking close to that Six guy but not telling Soleil? Your fucking bestfriend? You're all shitty aren't you?
You:
Hey you are being so harsh :(
Simon:
It's because you're being unfuckingreasonable
You:
I know
But what should I do?
I'm afraid, I'm afraid because I've been feeling things that I shouldn't be feeling. I'm afraid because I can't just like him like that, we're freaking strangers! But why am I like this? Why am I still doing it?
I was so afraid that I want to distant myself first yet Soleil is pushing me off, I can't tell her because I'm afraid
Simon:
You're afraid of what? Of falling? Of opening yourself up to someone? Of being your whole self on the people who loves and cares for you?
If that so then be afraid. Be fucking afraid of yourself cause you're letting those demons eat you up
You:
You don't understand
Simon:
No Joy, you should understand. Relationship comes with trust. How could you possibly say you're bestfriend with Soleil if you don't trust her?
You:
I trust her
Simon:
But not enough to lay yourself infront of her?
Look. There will always come a time when people will misunderstood you, you still need to talk and tell them everything specially those people who were closest to you.
Talk to Soleil, tell her your doubts and everything that you're afraid of. Don't keep her in the dark, she deserves to know what you are coming through for her to understand you
You:
It's easier said that done
Simon:
Then do something about making it easier to do than say
You:
Easy for you to say
Simon:
Don't misundersand
Okay. It's pretty scary to trust people but don't you think it's more scary to lose the truest people just because you're scared?
You:
I dont know
Simon:
She loves and cares for you
You:
Stop making me cry :(
Simon:
Then stop being a bitch and settle everything before you lose everyone
You:
I'll try
Simon:
Don't just try, do it
You:
I don't know Simon, I'm so scared right now. I don't know what to actually do or think
Simon:
Alright
I'll leave you alone now
But please reflect on yourself
You:
I'm sorry :(
Simon:
Don't be, I'm your friend. I'm supposed to understand you even though you're unreasonable and well exhausting
But do cheer up.
Also, I'm sorry for being harsh
Though I'm not sorry for meaning it
You:
Appreciated
