Joe's P.O.V
I woke up still intertwined with Caspar, who was still fast asleep. I didn't want to wake him so I just lay there holding him closer to me. He felt so warm against my chest, he looked so peaceful and beautiful. Wait what was I saying? Caspar was my friend. My best friend. Why was I thinking about him in this way. Did I have feelings for Caspar? This could make things complicated.
I went for a walk on my own. I needed to clear my head, work out what I was feeling. But all I could think about was Caspar. Caspar. Caspar. Caspar. What is happening? I texted Will and asked if he wanted to hang out, he replied minutes later saying he would meet me back at the flat. That was a shame. I was planning on avoiding Caspar until I worked out what I was feeling.
I got back to the flat and Will was waiting for me.
"Hey Joe you alright?" said Will.
"Yeah great" I lied.
As we entered the flat I noticed Caspar was still lying on the sofa in the same position I left him. I presumed he was still asleep. I shifted my gaze. Just as Will was in the process of taking his coat off I quickly said
"Err Will I fancied going on a walk want to come, I'm sure there will be lots of chances for a good Instagram picture" I laughed. But it was a fake laugh. And I think Will could tell.
"Oh ok, sure" he said.
We walked and I didn't really have a clue where we were going to go. I just needed to get out of the house. I couldn't stand being around Caspar because I didn't know what I was feeling and it was weird and confusing to me.
We walked in silence for at least 10 minutes before Will said
"Are you sure you're ok Joe, you're being really quiet"
I don't know why. Maybe because I though telling someone else would help me figure out what was going on. I told Will everything about the last couple of weeks and Caspar. All the questions I was asking myself. I poured out all my feelings to Will. I thought I was straight? Do I like Caspar? Will he hate me if he finds out? I expected Will to laugh at him. Think he was joking. But Will didn't laugh. He just listened. He didn't question anything until I had finished speaking. It took a few moments for Will to speak.
"In fairness I do not know what you are feeling. That is impossible. But I do know that whatever you have with Caspar. Wether it is a friendship or more, is special, and you should cherish that. Until you know exactly what you feel towards him I think you should carry on as normal. And once you have figured it out. However long it takes. Follow your heart. A true friend will stand by you whatever happens. Caspar is a true friend. Hold onto him in any way you can" I'll never forget those words. Will is a remarkable person. And I'm lucky I had him as a friend.
