The return

27.

I've been MIA again, but this time it had to do with my health . I was unable to move normally , so I took some time off and now that I'm feeling better, I'm writing and getting this chapter up ASAP.

Liam didn't stop mentioning Christopher . It got out of control that he talked about him every day. Non stop, almost like he had someone else and he wanted me to start thinking about Chris, so I could leave him, but when we got to arguments, he did not want to leave, or let me go. I was confused as to what was happening, he fed me with his own fears every single day.

When I met up with my friends, I broke down out of nowhere and started to cry, being sure that I made the wrong decision, and maybe I really should've picked Christopher. Maybe it was faith , showing me that Liam was never the one for me, but I doubted that before, so what did that mean ?

On February 14th, when it was supposed to be one of the best days I've had with Liam so far, turned to a complete nightmare. We had fights every night and that was the " new normal" for me and for people around me who had to go through it all with me. And I wasn't sure weather it was my fault and I was the one to be blamed for thinking about Trey being here, walking around, thinking about chances of actually running into him. Or it wasn't me, but Liam's pushing me away and telling me I have some feelings for someone else I clearly don't feel anything for .

" So, tell me, what's the newest gossip?" Lindsay, my friend elbowed me while writing something down in her notebook.

" So, you don't know this story, but it's actually quite funny." I bit my lip, unable to control my smirk

" What," She looked at me and raised her left eyebrow, " What is it ?" She asked impatiently .

I laughed , " There was this one guy three years ago, I didn't know you back then so it won't make much sense, but I met this guy, he's older than me, and uhh, I have to show him." I pulled my phone out of my bag, and opened facebook. I can't believe , when me and Liam have the slightest argument, I run to my friends and talk about Trey. But then again , it wasn't a slight argument, and it did go on for a while now.

" What guy ? Sonia, what ?" Lindsay was confused , she put away her notebook and turned to me, " What's the deal with that guy?"

" Well , once, I had the biggest crush on him, and we kind of flirted, but nothing more. " I lied just because I didn't want to expose myself straight away. " He's so hot, he's super tall, muscles , tattoos, phew, "

" Okay, I like tattoos."

I found his picture and my heart stopped because it was new and I hadn't see it. It was his face from the side, blue lights, looked like it was taken in a club or something, he had cigarette in his hand and there was a new neck tattoo.

" Did you find him ? Show me! I wanna see him!" Lindsay whined, I couldn't help but giggle, covering my mouth and locking my phone .

" Hey! Show me! " she repeated. I took a deep breath and unlocked my phone, swiping left to see more, and one swipe was enough to see more, he was standing with his boys, his shirt open, exposing his tattoos to the world, biggest smile and sunglasses covering his eyes. His tanned skin full with tattoos made me almost gasp out loud. I turned my phone over to Lindsay.

" Oh my god," her jaw stayed open, " That's him ? That's the guy ?" Lindsay asked in disbelief .

I nodded and looked at the picture with her, my eyes stopping on every detail on his ridiculously hot body.

"Sonia?" my friend looked at me as my eyes were still glued to the screen, " Why are you still with Liam?"

My phone kept buzzing and felt like it's going to explode from all the calls and texts. Me and Liam had the usual fight , and he to get revenge on me , went to the club and left me alone on Valentine's Day. I mean yeah it' a normal day, just like the others, but it sucks when everyone around you asks, what you and your boyfriend are going to do, and you have no answer for that, you can just nod and say- well I felt sick and he went out with his guys to the club. But then should he leave you alone if you felt sick ?

I felt so lonely and sad that I went home, to spend the evening with my mom, gossip and drink some Champagne, but the whole time my head was somewhere else. I felt uneasy knowing Trey is in the same city as I am right now, he's walking the same streets, and maybe we were even close to running into each other. I was thinking about what he's doing right now, has he got someone new, is he happy, what is he thinking about. All these thoughts made me dreamy and grumpy too, I wanted something which I couldn't get .

I knew I was fucked when I got the text from Liam's friend, video showing him and some girl kissing and then laughing it off. How I was fucked ? Because I felt more numb than I should have. I should've been mad or sad, but I couldn't force myself to be. I was numb and I didn't care what he was doing, who he was kissing or sleeping with . I was completely fucked because not only my head was uneasy with Trey being back in town, but also heart. I'm fucked, my heart is fucked. My relationship is fucked and all I want right now, is to be with Trey.