Not okay anymore (Dani Cimorelli)- completed

Chapter 3

Dani's POV

It's been two months since everyone started getting along. I know I have to tell them, Lisa is suspicious. I feel a little left out sometimes with in my family, The little boys have each other, Alex is touring Europe, Amy and Lisa have each other, Katherine and Christina have each other, Mike is always out with his friends now, mom and dad are always away.

Today me and my friends are going shopping to cheer me up. I told Claire, my best friend about cutting and she wants to help me just like Lauren would have done.

I got changed ugh I'm so ugly I can't stand it, I'm only staying here and not just killing myself here and now because of my family and friends. I cry a lot because of who I am.

"Dani what's wrong?" Lisa asked as she walked into the bathroom, great I forgot to lock the door.

"Nothing, it doesn't matter" I whipped my eyes

"You know you can tell any of us when ever you need some comfort or advice or help, anything" she said kindly, I nodded weakly smiling.

"Ok fine I have something to tell you, I'd like to tell all the girls" I gave in, I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"I'll get everyone" she said and ran off I walked into my room and sat on the top bunk, Lauren's bed but practically mine now, I even use her bed sheet covers as I can go to sleep surrounded by her sweet flower like scent every night.

my 4 sisters walked in and I began to get really nervous

"Dani, take your time" Christina said

I bit on my cheek not sure what to say I just wanted to crawl into the corner and disappear forever.

"I-I c-cut, I'm so sorry I'd be been doing it about 5 months then Lauren found out I explained but I couldn't do it anymore I ran off and that was the day Lauren..." I explained quietly

"oh Dani all this time how could we not know" Lisa said about to cry

"it's okay, I'm the one how does it who hide it" I said

"Dani, why? you so perfect, the most beautiful, mature, kind, funny, cute, sweet, weenie 14 year old on this earth" Amy said

"I'm ugly, people just tell me I'm pretty so it doesn't hurt me, I'm not that mature, I'm hardly that kind if I ignored Lauren one of the last moments I had with her then the next moment she died" I sighed

"Dani that's not true honestly if people think that or not please they stop because everything Amy just said about you is true and what we believe, we love you and can't imagine life without you" Kath hugged me tight

"I'll try" I put my head on her shoulder and just stayed in the moment for a bit. can I really do this? remember Danielle it's what Lauren would want and it's what my sisters here want and I love them all.