Dior Dreams

R E V E A L !

I Walked Out The Hospital Doors , It Was Mid December , I Was Cold . Mu Gave Me His Bubble Coat , He Rolled Me To A 2015 Benz Truck . " Baby , Did You Get Us A Uber ? " I Said . " No Stink I Got You A Gift " He Said Kissing My Farhead .

He Opened The Door & It WasFilled With Bags , Tote Bags , Flowers , Balloons , Over 10 Pair Of Uggs , And Designer Shoes . I Cried AsHe Picked Up & Placed Me In The Passenger Seat . I Was a Still Mad At Him But , I Couldn't Stay Mad For Long , It Was All White With Black Leather Interior , On The Head Board Was Stitched Initials ZK . It Was Beautiful . " Muhammad , you Didn't Have To Do This , Christmas Is Soo Close , I Don't Need All This Stuff . " I Said

" Don't Worry About Christmas , This Has Nothing To Do With That , And I Have To Make All This Stuff Up To You Baby This Is Only The Beginning . " He Said To Me Leaning In To Kiss Me .

After 20 Minutes . we Reached Our Home . I Still Felt pretty Weak Soo Mu Decided To Carry Me Out The Car , I Think This Was His Weekly Workout Or Some Shit .

" Baby I Can Walk , You Don't Have To Keep Totting Me Around ... owe Don't Forget My Bag ! " I Said . He Carried Me Up The Stairs , To Our Room Where Porshe And Mama Was Sitting with Flowers Galore ! " Welcome Home !!! " They Shouted as They Hugged & Kissed Me . I missed Them Sooo Much .

after A Hour Of Family Time I Figured It Was Time To Get Up . I Went To My Closet , Everything Was Either Too Short Or Too Tight . I Needed Clothes .

" Momma ! " I Shouted .

" Yes Baby ? what's Wrong ?? " she Said Concerned .

" No , No I'm Fine I Just Need To Get Out & Go Shopping , Do You Wanna Come ? I'll Treat You To Dinner Too . " I Said Sweetly .

" Ion Knoee If Mu Mu Will Like That , You Knoee He Wants You To Rest . " She Said

" Well Dr. Kaafri Is Going To Have To Get Over It Because I've Been In Rooms & Taking Medicine Too Long . I Need Air . " I Said .

" Alright Zy, Lemmie Grab My Things . "

Momma Wasn't Your Average 57 Year Old Lady . She Was A Old Thug , She Ran Numbers For A Cat Out Blumberg In The 70 s , She Sold Work In The 80's But Got Locked Up Right After Mu Was Born For Slicing Up Her Baby's Father for Creeping . She Had Crazy Bank , Houses & Pocket Books . I Aspired To Live Like Her . I wore My Black Turtle Neck , Black Joe Jeans & Black Desert Boots With My White Blazer .

Momma Wore A Nice Git Up . Her Black & White Chanel Espadrilles , Black Slacks & White Blouse , With Her Mini Mink . I Got Jealous & Grabbed Mine , Mu Brought Me .

" And Where Yall Too Going ? " Muhammad Said Hold A Sleeping Porshe .

" Me & My Momma Are Going On A Date . " I Said

" Oh Soo No Invite Huh ? " He Said .

" Nope ! " We Said In Unison Laughing .

We Walked To The Garage Where Our 4 Cars Rested .

" I'll Drive " She Said .

Then She Snatched The Silk Cover off Of Her 2014 Mercedes Truck , It Was Burgundy , We Got In & Headed To The Mall .

" Soo Momma , I Have A Question . " I Said

" Shoot Baby "

" How Did You Take It When Muhammad Told You He Was Gay ? " I Asked .

" Well , Muhammad Wasn't A Average Child . He Was Quiet . He Use To Write Everything In His Book , Poems , Story's , Ect . like His Father . When Mu Was Around 13 He Started Telling Me How He Hated Girls & Didn't Think They Were Attractive . At First I Was Hurt Thinking I Wouldn't Be Able To Get Grandchildren But When I Seen How His Father Acted , Yelling At Him , Becoming Physical . I Put That Aside . I Knew He Was Gay , But He didn't Knoee I Knew . like A Loving Mother I Became His Outlet . I Sheltered Him & Became The Person He Could Run To & Confide In . Soo To Answer You Question . I Took It Like A Unplanned Pregnancy . I Was Uspet , I Cried . I Became Selfless Because I Knew I Had To Make Light Of The situation . " She Said .
" Damn , Mu Never Told Me Any Of That . " I Said .
Mu Didn't Tell Me A lot , A Little Of Too Much He's Not Telling Me .

Me & Momma Shopped Until Closing . We Picked Up Dinner & Movie . We Got My Favorite Movie " Gia " . then We Brung It Back To The House . I Couldn't Help But Think About My Sister Shanda . But All Of A Sudden I Gotta Call From Aunt Chanel .

" Hey Baby . how You Feelin ? " she Said .
" I'm Fine , I Miss You Guys , I'll Be Back In A Few Weeks . " I Said Lying About My State of Being .
" Take Your Time But , I Just Rode Past Your House and came To Do A Lil Cleaning . I Ran Across A Letter From A Teefah Cummings . I Think You Should Open it . " Aunt Chanel Said .
I Froze , I Remembered The Name , Grandmom Told Me That Name In Heaven . I Have To Get To It .
After Me And Momma Drove home , i Got Mu To Take Me There , I Was Scared To Be Away From Him Especially In That House I Got Abducted From . We Pulled Up Out Front .

" Stink You Don't Have To Go In If You Don't Want To . " said Mu
" No , I'll Go . I Need To Grow Up . "
I Hopped Out The Car and Switched Over There . I Unlocked The Door & Went Inside . it Felt Like Miles From The Door To The Kitchen Table That Only Were A Good 20 Feet Away .
I Finally Opened The Letter .

Dear , Elijahdeen .
Hello , My Name Is Teefah Cummings . I've Been watching You For Some Time Now . I Have Made It My Business To Find You After All These Years . I Regret Every Day Of My Life For Leaving You , I Do , I Just Wanted Your Dad To Leave His Wife . I Wanted Him To Be With Us . I Wanted Him To Realize My Hurt , But . He Wouldn't Leave . He Loved Her , So I Knew I Couldn't Love You Because I Felt Like You Were The Reason He Left I Couldn't Do It . I Left You There . you Was His Responsibility. That Day I Was High On PCP , I Wasn't Thinking Straight . But After I Got Clean The Police Were Already Looking For Me Soo I Moved To NOLA . I Want To Meet you Finally Baby . Hopefully You Feel The Same .
- Mommy