No or No | Chaeyu

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"I don't think you deserve a choice anymore." Tzuyu mumbled, her face turned to the horizon. I watched her eyes follow a surfer on a wave as he plummeted down, his board flying up into the air. I don't know if he surfaced.

Tzuyu looked back toward me, her eyes wavering slightly. She was biting her lip. She always did that when she was upset. I couldn't blame her after what I had done to her. I felt my own bottled up feelings rise to the surface. Apologies I never spoke out loud out of spite. All the times I hung up the phone, just that little bit earlier. All my fears of being found out.

"Chewy, please." My voice shook because I knew there was no point in arguing with her. Once Tzuyu had made up her mind, it was final. And she had good reason to be final this time. "Please give me one more chance. I know I can do better. I know it." I took her hands in mine. She let me, surprisingly. It wouldn't have been strange to see her pull away.

I still don't know why I did that. I took her hands and ran my thumbs across her knuckles. Her eyes stayed on our hands as I tried to explain myself for what must have been the thousandth time.

"I promise I won't go out late anymore." I said, squeezing her hands a little. "I promise I won't forget our anniversaries anymore. I promise that I'll be there for you whenever you need it. I'll change. I'll do it for you. I want to be with you." In the moment, my words seemed sincere, but I knew deep down, I could never really change. Not completely.

Tzuyu sighed lightly, tears dripping down the bridge of her nose. It killed me to see her cry. I guess I've seen it too many times.

"I can't do it." She muttered. "Not again, Chae. I can't stand it when you're like this." She sniffed slightly and looked back to the ocean. The sunset gleamed in her eyes. She was so beautiful. I didn't want to let her go.

"You always say stuff like that and I always believe you. But you never change." She finally removed her hands from mine, wiping the tears from her cheeks. I felt tears coming to my own eyes even though I had known that this was coming.

"I'm done." She said finally, standing up and getting ready to leave. My heart bounced out of my chest and tears leaped to my eyes. I knew she had every right to leave, but a part of me still wanted her.

"Please, Tzuyu." I cried. "I can't live without you." That's a lie. I can. I don't know why I say these things. "I need you!" No I don't. I've proved that many a time. "I'll choose you above all else! You're the only one for me!" Then why do I keep leaving?

Tzuyu laughed through her tears and she adjusted her coat.

"Since you had so many girls to choose from, I'll give you a choice too." Fresh tears spilled again. "Do you want to be with me?" She asked, but before I could say anything she spoke.

"You have two choices: No, or no. Because I won't take any others." She sobbed once before turning to leave, her hair billowing in the ocean breeze. Tzuyu was right. I didn't deserve a choice.



A/N: This is some Chaeyu!!!! Bit sadder today, but I hope you liked it :)

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