Phobia | Sahyo

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"So, Jihyo," Sana began, wringing her hands and looking down at the floor. "Are you free this afternoon?" She looked up sheepishly, only to see Jihyo frozen in a state of confusion.

"Um..." She responded, which made Sana's heart sink to her stomach. 

"I mean, do you want to go for dinner with me?" Sana mumbled, her confidence wavering. "Like, on a date."

Jihyo opened and closed her mouth like a fish a few times and her eyes seemed to bulge out of her head as she whispered a response.

"Yes." Sana's heart raced and her face flushed, but Jihyo looked pale and sweaty. Before Sana could make any further arrangements, she forced herself to remain calm and asked the girl if she was alright.

"Yeah, no. I'm fine." (A/N: I was just wondering if any other cultures use this type of language. I know I would personally use 'yeah nah' as a no. In this context it's used as a dismissal. What do you guys think? Is this a weird phrase? Haha. Weird thoughts in the middle of my fan fiction.) She said, her voice a little too high and her smile a little too wide, but Sana was too excited to take much notice.


It was later that evening and Sana was making her way to the meeting place that her and Jihyo had agreed on. It was almost 7pm, the time they had both agreed on and as Sana approached a park bench, she spotted Jihyo already seated and waiting. She power walked up to her, feeling a little embarrassed.

"Haha. Hi Jihyo!" She began, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "I hope you haven't been waiting long." Jihyo turned to face her and smiled sheepishly before replying.

"I've actually been waiting for half an hour." Sana's stomach dropped and Jihyo, as if she had just realised what she had said stood and bowed.

"Nonono! It was no trouble!" She stammered. Then muttered a curse under her breath. "It's just that I have allegrophobia." She looked up again, tears seeming to form in her eyes. Sana shook her head immediately, letting the girl know that it wasn't an issue. But she was slightly confused.

"Allegrophobia?" She asked as they began to walk through the park to their destination at one of Sana's favourite restaurants that she knew Jihyo would love too.

"I have a fear of being late." She said, and they continued to walk in a comfortable silence as Sana processed this information. The girl probably arrived so early only to avoid being late. The poor thing.

They hadn't walked long before a man walking a dog approached the two of them and Jihyo was suddenly grabbing Sana's hand and pulling them from the path. She dragged her behind a tree, her eyes fixated on the man and his dog as they passed, and she only allowed Sana to move once they were more than ten meters away.

Sana looked at her questioningly, before Jihyo let go of her hand quickly and bowed again in an apology.

"Sorry," She said. "It's just that I also have cynophobia." She became teary again with what Sana could guess was embarrassment and fear.

"A fear of men walking their dog?" Sana asked, putting her arm around Jihyo's tensed shoulders. Jihyo shook her head.

"Just the dogs." She mumbled. "Maybe I should have said something." Sana laughed.

"No, it's ok. We're almost out of the park. There shouldn't be any dogs roaming the streets."

Two phobias in one girl. Thought Sana. Jihyo was really something else.



After their eventful walk through the park, the couple arrived at Sana's favourite restaurant and proceeded to order at the counter. Sana picked up the table number and was about to lead Jihyo to her favourite table at the back corner of the room near a window where it was possible to look over the entire city, before Jihyo snatched it from her hand.

"Can we change this please?" She asked, her voice shaking. Sana was befuddled.

"What's wrong with it?" It just looked like a regular table number to her.

"It's a... f-four." She whispered as if the word were a jinx. Sana was confused. Jihyo sighed. "I have tetraphobia. Fear of the number... four."

Sana tried not to laugh with the cashier as she exchanged the number to a safe number five, but she could sort of understand where Jihyo was coming from. There was a lot of superstition around the number four in Japan. Maybe she had a similar superstition? Whatever the case, this date was turning into something interesting. She'd never met a person with so many very specific fears before.

Just as they were about to move to Sana's favourite spot, Jihyo tugged at her jacket sleeve.

"Is it ok if we sit outside?" She asked shyly, her face forming the cutest pair of puppy dog eyes that Sana had ever seen. Ironic. She looked to the outside of the restaurant. It was pretty empty because of the cold weather. She couldn't understand why Jihyo would want to freeze her butt off out there. Then it suddenly hit her. The inside was packed. People were sitting and chatting at every table.

"You have a fear of crowds don't you?" Sana guessed. When Jihyo nodded, muttering the word: "agoraphobia". Sana gave in to her adorable expression and they took a seat outside, well, she did at least.

Jihyo paced for a little while, talking to herself, then she sat down on the very edge of her seat as if ready to bolt at any second. All she could think was: What is she afraid of this time?

"Are you alright?" She asked, concerned that the younger was about to fall off her chair. Jihyo looked surprised and then embarrassed again.

"I'm so sorry Sana. I also have deipnophobia but I'm fine. I'll get over it. It's just the fear of eating dinner. Nothing serious."

"You could have told me and we could have gone for breakfast." Sana said. She felt so guilty that she had put Jihyo through so much.

"I'm so sorry." Jihyo said again, standing up. "This date is going horrible. Maybe I should go."

"But we just got here! And the food is on it's way!" Sana said, grabbing the girl's hand. "I really like you Jihyo, no matter what phobia's you have. I just want to spend time with you!"

Jihyo relaxed slightly.
"It's just that I have sarmassophobia." She said. "A fear of dates. That's why this thing has gone so badly. It's all my fault."

Sana laughed. She pulled Jihyo into her arms and squeezed.

"Why didn't you just tell me no then?" She asked.

"Because I hate letting people down... and I also really like you too."

Sana's heart leaped from her chest. She moved Jihyo back to look into her eyes.

"Well, I promise to keep you safe. I won't be afraid of anything. I'll be brave for you, so you don't have to."

Jihyo smiled a little at this, but deep down, she was afraid of her heart being broken.




A/N: Wtf is this?

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