My Lost Princess

CHAPTER 20

CHRISTINE'S POV

I hate the fact that I'm next to him but he was looking at the others

And guess who?

Kay Michelle lang naman

Lately,I notice that he was always looking at her as if he was happy to see her

Nagpaalam na sila na uuwi na galing sa practice pero bago pa yun,nakita ko kung gaano kasaya sila mommy Kay Michelle na para bang ang gaan ng loob nila sa isat isa

I felt mad at her,why would I be if she didn't do anything bad at me?

I don't know,I just...I just first saw that girl with a rash on my chest

Maybe because she was so brat?she got all the attention, first levinn and the B9 attention second my parents,who else?

I think there something's story repeat,Michelle as Jade and Me,Christine the little devil

You know why? I'm mad at Jade because she's every persons favorite,every persons love...but me? I have nothing

Oh there's one!

Si levinn....we were the real friends,I was the first one he like,I know that,but then there's JADE my dear twin,she stole everything from me,all the attentions....including Levinn

I walk to the room and decided to take a rest first,but something caught my attention

It was a picture of mine...together with Jade.

We look so happy,smiling ear to ear as if we had no problem in the world

I returned it and lay down to bed,it took me a moment to think..I tried to sleep but I can't,

I have fear that if I close my eyes,every memories of mine and Michelle would come back and make me conscience

It always bothered me....Im always dreaming about her,the figure of her smiling and laughing....together with me and I hate that.

Ever since Jade was lost,MISSING always knocking in my mind but there's something inside me that can't accept it

Something that....I know if I accept,I will just regret it

Some times, I ask myself...am I bad person?

Of course not!

But there's a part of me return that stupid answer of mine

Jade and I were so close when we were child,playing dolls,sleeping together,laughing as if there's no tommorow

I always said that I'm lucky to have her,to have a twin like her...but it also return in favor

One day,from saying that im lucky to have her I keep saying that I hate her

But one thing ruined it,when levinn told me that he likes Jade
In a 5 year old kid,I felt broken hearted

Is it over acting? Well for me,its not,my heart slowly swept away from Jade,until one day I just...woke up feeling mad at her

I have done all the crazy things I know just to ruin her in the eyes of others, yes, I suceed...I'll just beg at her that don't tell to mommy and daddy that I'm the one behind those crazy things,she will do it.

But they still love her, and i hate that until one day I just took mommy's money, because she said it was bad to take things that were not yours, so I knew if I did that they would be upset, but instead of me, I put the money in Jade's bag, I knew she was going to admit that too, but I was wrong, she told me to mommy, all the crazy things I make, so they were so mad at me that time, all I could feel for Jade is hatred,but she said , she seems to lose all confidence, but not our parents trust,maybe if I didn't hate her then I would have admired her, as if she was too old to think....so I locked her up in a dirty room that time. but levinn saved her,she didn't accuse me but i was still angry at her.

Her reason?because she loves me.....

Do I love her? I ask myself,

O-of course not right?

Why would I loved her?

If its me,the one who did an act to make her lost.....