romance at the bookstore

Chapter 19

Wow, who knew I could feel this way about a person, like I honestly had no idea. Alex and me just click in a different way and everything that he's done for me today and just generally being around me has just brought those emotions up even more.

I decided to stay the night at Alex's for the first time tonight, we're cuddling and it's so nice, I want to stay like this for ever.

Alex raises his head " Fuckk I just realized I haven't studied for our test tomorrow"

"Oh babe don't worry we can study together I studied yesterday" I answer while sitting up.

Alex stands up to get his books and I sit at the end of the bed cross legged and pull the shirt down so it covers half of my thighs. Alex sits down at the other end of the bed and we start studying. I quiz him on definitions and little things we need to know and explain concepts he doesn't understand. It's good practice for me as well but I honestly love studying with Alex. He makes this face when he doesn't understand something and he bites his lip, it's sooo cute.

We end up getting distracted, welll I end up getting distracted my attention span is pretty short, and we stop studying. I kept trying to kiss him and he kept pulling away from me until finally he just put his hands on my waist and pulled me towards him. The shirt I'm wearing hikes up my body but I don't care I'm too entranced by the kiss.

Suddenly I pull away and Alex looks at me.

"What?" He asks, concerned.

"Do you wanna come meet my family after school is done?" I've never brought a boy home before, I've never felt this way about a person, I was always too busy at home for boys.

"Are you sure you want me to? Meeting family is a big step"

"I know, that's why I want you to meet them, I want to take the big step."

Alex looks at me for a minute, contemplating the question.

"If you're sure that's what you want then of course I'll meet them." He answers with a smile.

I lean over and kiss him again, he's the best.

I look at the clock, It's 1:30 already woah. We should probably go to bed since we have school and a test tomorrow but I'm enjoying the company too much to go to sleep.

"Hey Alex, I've got a question, growing up or even now do you ever just feel sad for no reason like you could be in the happiest situation but you just feel sad, you know?"

"Ya Leila I know. Growing up I felt that way pretty often, especially in the times when my dad was violent, it's called depression babe. I struggled a lot with it when I was younger but it's gotten better now that I'm in Uni though. I also struggled with anxiety a lot, again because of my dad and that I'm still struggling with but with you... you make everything better"

Deep talk are the best, I don't really know how to answer that though.

"I'm sorry Alex, promise you'll tell me if it gets bad so that I can help you okay."

"Of course Leila, I'll tell you. And how about you, do you ever feel that way?"

I say yes and we continue talking about it for a while. I explain that when I was younger, especially in high school, it was really bad but eventually I realized that one day I would feel better and from that point things started to get better in my mind and my life in general.

I kiss him softly, after I'm done talking and he quickly makes it more passionate. He grabs my waist and pulls me on top of him. My shirt hikes up to my waist and he quickly puts his hands on my thighs and moves them up to my waist. I shiver at the feeling of his hands on my skin.

Things continue to escalate and by the end of the night we're both exhausted and fall asleep in each other's arms.

I love this man more than anything.