Pray

We made it

*Flashback*

I walked down the isle in my robe, I knew at this moment that I would be becoming an adult and need to face my own battles. Looking at all my friends and my peers that I won't see so often made me emotional but also excited. Taehyung is my #1 best friend, he always is there for me, no matter the cost. If I was ever in a bad situation, he would always make sure I'm okay and be there for me. He wouldnt just give and give and I take and take, we would equally give and take. I remember the day I didn't bring my lunch money and didn't have anything to eat unless I could pay for it. Being the saviour he is, Tae bought me my lunch and wouldn't let me pay him back. I payed him back anyways, Tae's family always struggles on their finances and I hate the thought of not paying him back. I can count on him anyday. Like he would sing to me every time I felt terrible, "You can count on me, like 1 2 3 I'll be there." Tae and I both are the #1 soloists in choreography and chorus. We excel both in arts and music better than most of our peers. The day me and Taehyung had a duet in chorus was one of the best performances we ever had. So many people complimented me and Tae on our vocals but also the chorus. We couldn't of done it without them. Everyone in the audience watching us walk up to the front were either crying that their kids were graduating and not living under their house anymore, or were pretty damn happy they were leaving for good. My father was in the back row smiling at me. My mother was sobbing a little, holding some kleenex from her purse. My mom is always very sweet to me and my friends
I come from a super Christian family and every Wednesday is a "Learn from god" day. We read the bible and pray for each other hand in hand. My father's past isn't the best, he always had struggled with believing in god. But now, we go to church every Sunday and listen to the services. My father was enlightend by our churches pastor and prayed over my dad.
I eventually got up to the front with all of the faces of my peers, we all held our diploma and smiled. Tae was right beside me and patting my back while whispering something I was hoping to hear since I was in my junior year, "We made it." Me and Tae both knew we wouldn't leave without being able to hang out on breaks and holidays. No way in hell would we ever forget about each other. So many people thought we were a gay couple but Taehyung was 100% straight and we were only bestfriends. I never thought about lgbtq but I knew times I would be attracted to guys oddly. Those years though, I didn't want to date any one and only focus on my studies. Never was it on my mind. I got into my dream college I've always hoped for, Seoul Arts Field. It has always been my dream to excel in music and be a kpop idol. I could take the hardships in being an idol and make my fans happy by inspiring them to live up to their fullest potiental in what they want to be and do. I never gave up even when it was hard. The only times I ever flunked on everything were my middle school years and almost got kicked out of school. They only let me stay if I promised i would do way better in High school. Which is a huge change in my emotional state since my parents almost had a divorce those few years. As I got home that day I thought to myself before falling asleep and sobbing. Since it's the last week of my 8th grade year, I will motivate myself and force myself to get amazing grades in High school. My parents argued and argued until it came to my father leaving the house for a few days and stayed with a friend of his my mom knew well and trusted. We knew my dad cheated on my mom multiple times, but it was scary to admit for me and my mom. My mother always dealt with his illnesses even when I was a toddler. I feel bad for being too young and not able to help her through all of that shit. So now I come home from anything I'm doing outside of the house only to help my mother when my dad is home drunk yelling at her for literally nothing. She never does anything to my father. He tries to yell at her for anything she does, but it's not her fault whatsoever. These times were hard but a look back from this day.

*End Of Flashback*
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Thank you for reading if you did so far:)💜 Btw the song ^^ honestly fits This book, pls do listen if you get the chance☺. This is my first ever story and I may change up some of this chapter later. But there will be many more chapters later. Hope every has a good day and stays healthy 😊 But always remember. You nice keep going ❤💋