The same routine
The same faces we see again
We're on repeat
But that's all we see
We're outside
Blinded in the sun
once we go inside in the dark
we hear cries
but we willingly go deaf
and go outside again
But I pull myself back and everything is the same
in the dark
but this time I can't escape
I wanna kill myself
I hate myself
I'm in the dark
I can't bring this into the light of day
I'll let them be blinded by the sun as they go outside everyday
I'm sorry
You probably think the dark is a phase
I'll try to get out of it as soon as I can
You eventually get tired
you take a break and say
"Why are you stuck in here all day?"
And you try to pull me out
as you blind yourself with the sun
but I pull back
"Let me stay"
The darkness is not a phase
It's my only friend.
I wonder if this makes sense.
Ah it's been a while since I've written something. I'm rusty now so I need to start writing once again.
Shit.
10/27/19
