Can You Feel My Heart (If I Had One)?

The Night

For AnnMarieThrush

"Are you feeling better?" I put my hand to Mitch's forehead as he woke up. He pushed my hand away.

"Yes. Just tired." His arm went around my neck and he cuddled up to my chest. I felt the guilt rise in my throat. My adorable, clueless little human. I felt horrible for what I did to him. Humans expect things out of relationships. I didn't even get that when I wasn't a monster. I was a horrible human.

"I slept with Carter." He opened his eyes to look at me but he didn't seem surprised. Mitch sat up to hug me and I wrapped my arms around his body.

"I knew you'd at least freak out on me once."

"Aren't you going to get mad?" I moved away from him. He shook his head. "I can't get away with cheating twice. Nobody should go through that."

"Twice? Scott?" I blinked slowly. Well it seemed slowly. I honestly didn't want to tell him anything.

"My wife."

"You can't blame yourself for that-"

"Yes I can! My wife. My little girl." I was standing at the foot of his bed with my back turned towards him. "You shouldn't trust me Mitch." His arms wrapped around my shoulder and he kissed my neck.

"I do trust you." I felt his hands slip in the front of my shirt. "Enough to....to want to give my virginity to you." I turned around, pushing him away from me.

"Don't-"

"I love you." He admitted it in consciousness. I couldn't say it back. I could admit it to myself but not him.

"I'm a demon. A monster."

"No Scott." He was standing in front of me, trying to hold my face so I was looking at him. I made sure my eyes were a bright blood red. "You're my demon. And my demon is no monster. He's just confused." He wasn't disgusted by me. Everything came off so sincere. "I love you. And I will help you through anything."

"I'm tainting you as we speak."

"I don't mind being tainted. As long as it's you." How did he make words that could be taken so dirty sound so innocent? "You took me to see the northern lights. You stayed with me whenever I was sick. It been almost six months since we first started talking. You could have left."

"It time for you to go to school."

"Scott...." I glanced up at him. "The sun is setting. It's nighttime." My days were so off. I've been jumping place to place.

"I can't be with you like that." My hands tried to rub away the chills of the cold from his body. "I could hurt you. What would I do if I hurt the person I love?"

"L-love?" My eyes went wide. I wasn't suppose to say that. "Love me?" I nodded slowly. He stood on his toes to kiss me and I gladly gave in. His touch. Everything he did made me give in. This boy was a drug of his own. "Come to bed with me?" I listened to what was happening downstairs.

"You have to be quiet. Your grandma and sister are downstairs."

"Are people usually quiet their first time?" I shook my head. I had to figure out what to do. That's when I snapped my fingers and we were in a fancy hotel room.

"Are you completely sure about this?" Mitch seemed to finally let his fear surface.

"You'll be gentle?"

"As gentle as I possibly can." I was pleading in my mind that he would deny me. I have no idea what would happen. He could get seriously hurt by me. I don't have the normal strength of a human. But I couldn't deny that if he said yes I would push on the bed and take him. I've been imagining this for months.

"O-okay." He nodded his head slowly. I brushed a finger across his cheek lovingly. Mitch. So adorable. I leaned down to kiss him, feeling his lips quiver then stop. He got the confidence he needed. I pushed his shirt off his shoulders. I didn't need to waste my time undressing him. I could snap my fingers and his clothes would be gone along with mine. But I wanted to take in everything about him. We broke the kiss to take my shirt off. Then he stopped to stare at my face. "Don't use those eyes."

"What?"

"I want to see your real eyes." My eyes were blue right now. I blinked and they went red. He smiled. I was confused. Most people beg for my eyes to be blue. I slowly lowered him onto the silk sheets. All of his nervousness seemed to be gone. But mine surfaced when the last article of clothing was removed. "Scott?"

"Yeah?" He held my face and I was forced to make eye contact with him.

"I love you."

"I love you too Mitch." I was trying to be gentle. I really was. I didn't want to hurt him. I wanted him to feel nothing but pleasure. But I knew I hurt him when he let out a small scream. "I'm sorry. Should I stop?" He shook his head.

"No. Please don't." His hands were gripping my shoulders. I waited for him to get more comfortable. I wiped the tears from his eyes. He couldn't save himself for anyone now. He got his virginity taken by a demon. "It's okay now. I thought it would hurt more." He didn't know that I was doing everything in my power to make sure he wasn't hurting. His eyes drifted down my chest. He smiled at me.

"What?"

"Nothing." He brought my lips down to his. I guess I never thought I would get this far with Mitch. I figured he would have freaked out and ran. But here he is. His soft moans and giggles filling the empty room. I thought I would only be able to kiss him. Now, I'm able to gently bite the fragile flesh of his chest.

"Fuck you're amazing." I was holding myself up on my arms to keep from collapsing on Mitch. I could tell he was at a loss for words. I made him reach his climax twice before I reached my own. That's a lot for his first time. He sat up to kiss me.

"I-I love you." I brushed his damp hair away from his face.

"I know. And the same goes from me to you." I was laying next to him. "You are very special to me Mitch. If anyone were to find out, we could be in danger. Keep your thoughts closed. I'm begging you. I can't lose you."

"You're not going to." Mitch curled up to my chest.

Then we fell asleep with both of our hearts beating in a constant rhythm.