The Trouble with Faking It / Tyler Seguin

Chapter 18: Go Ahead And Break My Heart

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Chapter 18: go ahead and break my heart

"telling lies to protect somebody, only destroys them in the end."

Something that life taught me a long time ago, is that secrets have the ability to eat you alive. I have witnessed it first hand with my family and how it tore them apart. I made a promise with myself after things settled down to never keep secrets but recently, a lie I told a long time ago just came back to bite me in the butt. And boy, did it.

It went a little something like this.

August 5th

I knew that it was coming - the moment Clara would start questioning about her father. She is old enough to know that she should have one and she is not an idiot. Her first question when she met Tyler was if he was her dad and the look on Tyler's face and how he nearly choked on his drink was hilarious. But her question wasn't the least bit funny because it dug up strong questions and concerns I had been wondering lately.

First impressions are always memorable but when you're expecting a person to look a certain way because of who they should remind you of - it's easy to let that cloud your expectations.

Things changed the longer Clara was living with us. I began to notice things about her appearance that didn't match up with what I thought I saw when I first met her. She immediately reminded me of Dylan the moment I saw her but the longer I watched her, the less I saw similarities to him in any way and that is when the red flags started raising.

I was never quite as careless with things as Jaxon and Axel had been way back when but my clear lack of caution was what caused the pregnancy. That said, a part of me always questioned whether or not there was an extremely teeny, tiny chance that Dylan wasn't her father because my young, dumb self thought it was totally normal to be seeing somebody else while I wasn't in California.

I thought it was no big deal to be seeing Jo while I was in Montreal. We were young and inexperienced - that much was clear but I never let myself even think of the chance that Jo could be her father because what were the chances, right?

The chances are very good I learned recently and it left me at crossroads.

I can very easily lie, and tell Clara that her father is somebody I met in high school and he isn't in the picture but my fears are that she will one day go searching for answers and my lie will come in to the light.

I decided to consult with Maddie and that was definitely the wrong thing to do because she was livid.

"Are you kidding, Daisy?"

I wince, moving the phone away from my ear. I can clearly picture the disappointment on her face.

"Shh. I need you to keep it quiet, okay? I don't know what I'm going to do."

"You don't know what you're going to do." She says dryly and her tone makes me uncomfortable. "I might not be Jo's biggest fan, but if you're that unsure about who Clara's father is, he deserves to know there is a chance it's him."

"Are you kidding?" I snap, throwing her words back. "Maddie, I'm finally in a good place with Tyler, Jo, and Clara. Do you know what that will do?"

"What will do?"

I jump out of my skin and look to see Tyler walking into the bedroom where I'm sitting on the bed.