The other Nephilim

DREAMING

I woke up gasping for air but everything was black

I looked around to try to find a way out but there but I heard footsteps

I turned my head in the direction I heard the footsteps but yet again there was nothing

" You know You're pathetic Alexa-" said a  deep voice I froze in place until I finally got the courage to talk to it

" What do you mean I'm Pathetic," i said back to the voice

" thinking you can save Your precious dad from Death," said the voice I Froze how did it know what I was thinking

" I can read your thoughts, they're really loud, -" Said the voice pausing once more

" You think you're too weak. To do anything you couldn't even stop Dean from getting possessed "

I looked up and saw nothing once again I felt a tear roll down my cheek The voice kept rambling And I just stood there taking it, because after all, it was true

" What makes you think you can Save Sam, Jack, Cas, and Dean you can't, in reality, it's you that you need to keep them safe from, you're an abomination, You're worthless," Said the voice I just Stood there not fighting back and I don't know why was maybe because deep down I know the voice is right?

I always knew deep down I was evil and meant only for the evil I could never have a different future I let more tears fall thinking about how it'll all end up

"You think I don't know that of course, I am. look at what I can do, i'm a FUCKING DISGRACE " I yelled back at the voice

" YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT THE BOYS AND GIRLS DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER AND IN MORE CONTROL OF HER POWERS! " I said letting the tears Slip not being able to hold it back anymore

" IT'S ALL MY FUCKING FAULT IF-IF I MAYBE WASNT BORN NONE IF THIS SHIT WOULD HAPPEN, MAYBE THE BOYS WOULD BE SAFE AND SO WOULD THE GIRLS !" I Yelled drying my tears letting it all out not really caring if my powers go haywire

" I'm the problem, I'm the reason why everything is going to shit, they should just leave me and forget about me I'm not worth all this trouble," I said finally letting it all out

" Yes, you are, and once jack truly sees what you can do he'll never want anything to do with you," Said the voice once more I looked up and saw a black figure Tears welled up in my eyes

" You're right, Jack deserves better than me," I said letting the tears freely fall from my eyes

" good, you finally realized I mean look at how easy it was For Thanos to take control of you, and was so close to making you kill your " Family " you are not anything but a weapon that's it and you should act like it," said the voice it was right I was a weapon Thanos took control of me very easily
I gasped lightly and fell to my knees tears falling from my eyes

" You're right," I said my voice cracking I was done and tired of this I just wanted to give up I looked up and saw the black gooey form into my mother

" Good now you understand you must kill the Winchesters," she said I shook my head

" no, i'll do anything but that they are important to me and I would never kill them I would rather die than have anything bad happen to them, " I said

" DO IT ALEXA !" she yelled causing me to flinch I was growing more and more pissed the more she talked

" NO!" I yelled blue shooting out everywhere causing the Black to Woosh away I sat up gasping for air looking around my room