Saving me

Chapter 19

I don't know what day it is. Alice sleeps all the time to pass the time. I can't sleep. I just worry about Alice and my unborn child. Mine and Josh's unborn child. "Josh find us please," I whisper. "He'll find us mommy," Alice whispers to me. She snuggles up against me and falls asleep again. I've grown weaker. Carter doesn't feed us. And when he does it's very little. Joseph kicks like crazy because he's hungry. Alice can't calm him anymore. Only food will calm him now. I rub my belly gently in circles. It gets hot in here during the day and freezing at night. I'm surprised we're not dead. Probably on our way to being dead. I just want my husband. Our children need him. I need him. A door opens and a plate of food comes in. Followed by three more. "Eat up Heather Grace. In a little while you're going to need your strength," Carter's voice says. I get up and walk slowly over to the plates of food. It smells amazing. Roast beef, corn bread, lasagna, salad, chicken, all things I've missed so much. I eat as much as I can. Alice comes over and eats as much as she can too. Both of us are starving.

This is the first meal we've had in a while. Days. Maybe even months. I finish one plate and move on to the next. Alice eats a plate and a half and gives me the rest. "Alice sweetie you need to eat," I tell her. "You need it more than me mommy. Joseph needs some too," she tells me. "Thank you Alice," I say and hug her. "I love you mommy," she whispers as she hugs me. "And baby Joseph." "We love you too Alice," I say and kiss her temple. "Daddy loves us too and he's gonna find us. I know he is," she tells me. "He will find us. He loves us very dearly," I tell her. I finish eating and so does Alice. I ate as much as I could. Which ended up being what Alice didn't eat. She cuddles up next to me with her head in my belly. I have one arm around her and one hand on my belly. Joseph has calmed considerably since I ate something. I start to fall asleep myself. I close my eyes and sink into a deeper darkness.

I awake with a start a while later. My stomach hurts. Waves of pain every so often. I get up to walk it off. I walk over to a small "toilet" if you will in the opposite corner of me and Alice. As I walk across the floor something wet trickles down my legs.