a little braver. huang renjun

t h r e e

6th December

i was at the mall today.

i was thirdwheeling my friend and his date. they're so cute together.

remember when your friends said that about us?

i didn't like this mall.

everything around me reminded me of you.

from the hoodies on display to the ice cream at the ice cream shop.

the memories were hurting me. so i told jisung i had an emergency at home and i had to go.

i walked to the park to take a breath. or maybe have some ice cream.

but everywhere i looked, made me hurt inside.

i looked left and i saw a couple holding hands. walking side by side in the cold weather.

i looked right and i saw another couple eating ice cream, laughing and smiling, never taking their eyes of each other.

i looked forward and i saw a couple in each other arms, cuddling while watching children play in the snow.

all these perfect couples.

like we once we used to be.

i too want to hold your hand, laugh while having ice cream and cuddle with you.

i want to start over.