a little braver. huang renjun

f o u r

9th December

i walked to the playground today.

why?

in this old playground held our old memories. i felt like revisiting the place.

i saw you sitting down on the swing. something we used to do a lot.

i was so happy to see you. i walked towards you, a bit of me hoping you were happy too.

but you were alone. where's my best friend?

maybe you were waiting for him.

i gathered up some courage and sat on the swing beside you.

you seemed to be shocked to see me.

i said hi and gave you a smile.

you smiled back. that made me extremely happy.

we sat there in silence.

i was gonna say something.

but every time i try to speak, nothing comes out.

you asked me why i was here. i only looked at you with my mouth slightly open.

you smiled, shaking your head.

did you know that my heart went crazy?

it was beating ten thousand times a second.

i wanted to tell you something. i wanted to tell you i miss you.

but my heart was beating so fast, i couldn't speak.

i saw jaemin approaching. my best friend's here. i couldn't say anything and left before i got to say i miss you.