Possessive: His Match (Kingswood Saga Book 2 Completed)

4. Paul

Driving back home I go over and over Teddy's words, and feel like a total bastard. Teddy was right, not knowing is no excuse. Now I had to make a choice, but what did I want?
The thought of not having Lucy around ate at me, over the last few years she had been a bright spot and despite my moans about her flirting, I never stopped her or avoided her... till now.

I remembered how she had looked at dinner, and I hated the way, she had responded to me being there, and when she had said 'Nothing at All' to what was going on. Well, I had seen red, I wanted to shout at her and disagree, I wanted to see her fire and passion, not the mask she had been wearing tonight.

I thought back to the last two days of that weekend from hell, she had made me look at her in a different light, she had made sure everyone was okay, looked out for all of us, it had been difficult remembering that she was still a student, that she was a decade younger that me. I had always argued that Ten years was too much, but I had felt my defences crumbling around her, and it had shocked me, as well as her, when I kissed her. It had felt right, she had felt perfect but I had panicked and walked away.

Now I know that my behaviour, whilst unintentional, had caused her to retreat from me, I felt hollow, and I finally, recognised the feeling for what it was... fear.

I was scared of losing Lucy, had I really lost her before I truly had her. Well Teddy had warned me I would have a fight on my hands to win her back round, I would need to get planning.

I spent the night tossing and turning, planning and dreaming and woke in the morning with a hazy plan. I would need to speak to Teddy, as I would need a little bit of assistance but even if she disagreed I wouldn't stop.

I wanted MY Lucy back and nothing was going to stop me. I lifted the phone and called Duncan, hoping to borrow a cottage on the grounds for the spring break.
Next I tracked down Teddy, arranging to meet her at the coffee shop so I could persuade her to help.
"What's your plan?" she asked and I grimaced, knowing if I didn't phrase this properly then she would not help.
"I need her diary cleared for the spring break, I know there are a couple of events but I want to take her away for the week, your dad is lending me a cottage. I want to spend time with her and explore how we both feel, somewhere we can focus on each other" I explain.
"Why?"
"Because I was a fool and couldn't see what was right under my nose, and because she won't let me back in without a fight and I want in, all in. I hadn't realised how much I enjoyed being near her, I'd avoided looking, but now I want her fire back, the girl I saw last night, I broke her and I hate myself for it"
Teddy sat silently and I waited, I couldn't do this without her help.
"Okay say I help you, what happens at the end of the week?"
"I don't know, but I am hoping she forgives me and we are a couple, or she forgives me and we are friends. I just don't want her to be a shell of herself, like last night"
"How do you expect to get her to the cottage?" She questions and I shake my head.
"Not a clue, I was hoping you would have some ideas, spring break is two weeks away, I have that long to get everything in place" I look at her and she grins at me, making me wonder what thought just crossed her mind.
"What do you know about BDSM?" She asked just as I took a mouthful of coffee, I choked and she laughed.
"What the hell?"
"Lucy loves reading about alpha men, and I know she both reads and has looked at BDSM before, I think she needs a man who will take charge for her, someone who will put her first, keep her safe, discipline her if needed... like a Daddy. And I know you dabbled in that at college" she explained and I groaned, remembering when one of my old subs had approached us at an event to say hello, letting the cat out of the bag.
"That was a long time ago" I argued, but I could already see Lucy kneeling at my feet in my mind, and I shifted in my seat to get comfortable.
"You're imagining it aren't you?" Teddy giggled watching me.
"Are you sure she's interested, she always came across as very independent and alpha herself" I ask concerned.
"She is but, that's her disguise, trust me Paul, I want to see her and you happy, you're like my big brother and she's like a sister, you've just got to make her see reason"
"Okay, how?"
"The Friday before the break a group of us are heading out to celebrate, she will be drinking that night, you pick her up and take her to the cottage rather than home, i will pack you a bag for her. Don't screw it up, she won't forgive you or me if you do" Teddy warns.
"Thank you, what if she won't come and what about..."
"I'll take care of her diary, don't worry about that and more than a couple of drinks and she will pass out, she's a bit of a lightweight" she adds.
I reached under the table for the bag I had brought with me. "Can you give this to her?" I ask passing it across.
Teddy looks inside and laughs "I will"
"Thank you, I know you're in a tricky spot between the two of us, but I am sorry and I will make it right" I tell her but her attention is over my shoulder and her scowl is now aimed at something else.
"How did they find me" she groaned blushing bright red and I turned to look, seeing the Kingswood brothers heading our way, their eyes focussed on Teddy as they say hello to me.
"Hey baby" Luka says grinning at her
"What are you doing here?" She growls and I laugh, pushing my chair back, that's my cue to escape.