I hate you because I hate me.
I hate me because I lie to myself, because I hide the true me.
I hide me because I'm afraid,
afraid of showing emotions,
afraid of even having emotions.
I don't allow myself to feel,
because I'm afraid to getting hurt.
I fear letting someone be as close to me as you were.
And because I don't want anyone close to me I act fearless and brave,
I act like nobody ever could hurt me but every hurtful word they ever said about me keeps playing on repead in my head.
