t this point I'm conflicted whether is was a good or bad day bc if I chose to only look at the good stuff that happend it be like I'm lying to my self and if I'd only look at the bad/sad/disappointing things it would be the same.
On one hand I'm happy about all the love I received today, on the other I'm sad because I don't feel like I deserved it
One could say that my life is rather instable, so traditions hold a very high value in my eyes. They are reoccurring events, you can count on them happening. Things like Easter at Uelis house, Christmas at Charlotte's house or the family get to getter on my birthday.
I wanted to share one of the few stable things I have left with two of my best friends. I guess the demo effect occurred, it never works when someone's watching right?
Every year for the past 16 I could count on my parents, sisters, godmother and grandparents stopping by on my bday even if just for a second. This year only Ana made time for me. My mam is still in Wien, my dad had to work, nany has to wake up early tomorrow and no one knows why the others didn't stop by.
I'm very grateful for the few people who actually made it but I'd be lying if I said I'm not sad. It's sad to know that another thing i thought i could count on fell apart too.
