Mistreated | The Sequel | Donah Meavey

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Jonah's pov

"Just let me end it..please." he was literally begging me to let him...kill himself. I was in shock.

"Don't say such things." he made me cry again with these words. I hugged him tightly while rubbing his back. He was crying too.

"I'm barely holding on." he cried out quietly. "I can't..do this anymore."

"Daniel.." I whispered in his ear. "I can't say that I know what you feel or what you are going through, but you're not alone..babe I'm here for you..I'm gonna do anything for you just to see you smile again..I'm gonna do anything for you to make you the happiest again. Fight for it. We made it once, we're gonna make it again..I believe in you. You are stronger than you think..I swear. Don't give up Daniel..please don't give up. Everything is gonna be okay again..trust me. I know it sounds unreal right now, but you can do it babe, I promise. Don't leave me..I need you more than anything..you're all I need in my life. I can't live without you." I was trying so hard.

I don't even know if this helped him at least a little bit. I hope. I really do hope that it's enough for the beginning.

We remained in silence for some time, still hugging tightly. Then I spoke up again.

"Daniel..please just promise me that you're not gonna hurt yourself again." I said and we pulled away. He looked down and traced the cuts on his arm, not answering me. I put my finger under his chin and lifted it up, making him look at me.

We both had tears in our eyes. It hurts to see him like this.

"I...can't promise that, but...I'm gonna try." he said. So my speech really helped..a bit.

"Thank you babe..thank you so much." I hugged him again.

"I'm so sorry Jonah...for everything." he started crying lightly.

"Shhh, it's okay. It's not your fault. I admire you for your strength. You held on for so long without asking for help it's unreal."

"I had no choice, but to do what he says...I'm so afraid of what's gonna happen now." he was literally shaking from fear.

"I'm gonna find out what we can do just calm down and relax..try to think about something else. I know it's not easy, but remember when we started to visit the therapist. She kept saying that the positive thinking is really important as well as the things we focus on..the things we love and the people we are surrounded by..they all help us to find ourselves again. Those things clear our mind and reveal stress and everything negative. You got this." I felt like a therapist even if I'm not. If I could take away all the pain he feels I would do it immediately..but I can't..I just can help him to ease it. Am I really helping him?

"I love you..so much." he whispered in my ear. It made me smile weakly.

"I love you too..extremely much." I responded and pulled away. I placed my hand on his cheek caressing it with my thumb. Then I leaned closer and connected our lips. After we separated I pressed my forehead to his.

~2 days later~

Daniel's pov

We just arrived at home from the hospital. In the last few days Jonah was around me all the time. Looking after me like I was a child. Caring for me way too much. Of course I'm not really complaining. I would do the same probably. But I don't even deserve to be cared for.

I'm a mess. Nothing changed cause what would change it, right? It still hurts way too much. I have the urge to hurt myself, but I'm trying to ignore it. I overthink everything and every time. I'm suffering maybe even more, cause these days I'm so exhausted that I fall asleep everywhere, but the thing is...I have nightmares again..they are back.

On the other hand, Ben haven't called me since that night I....attempted suicide. But he's back in my nightmares.

I can't stop replaying the things from that night. All those horrible lies he kept saying me over and over again driving me absolutely crazy, the way those words made me feel, the things I did to myself..they are all repeating in my nightmares..causing me even more pain.

Jonah said that I'm whining while sleeping..or sometimes I even cry or talk to Ben. It must be scary, but I can't help myself.

Jonah's pov

I walked out on the terrace where Daniel was standing, looking down and thinking. He haven't moved from that spot for 20 minutes now or even more. I decided to join him before he overthinks himself to something harmful.

I stopped by him and put my arm around his shoulders. He was kind of zoned out still.

"I miss you." I said quietly and pressed my forehead to the side of his head.

"I know." he responded quietly as well.

"I'm gonna wait for you even if it takes forever." I whispered, trying to control the shake in my voice.

"I'm really trying my best I promise..it's just...so hard." a single tear rolled down on his cheek.

"I know babe..I know, but you're doing so well."

"So many things are going through my mind and I'm not able to stop them..even if I try to sleep. Those nightmares keep waking me up into another nightmare."

"Give it some time and everything's gonna be fine. Looks like Ben already gave up." I responded.

"He never gives up....it's just the silence before the storm."