so uhhhhhh i think we all know about my preference about not putting personal shid online because im just Like That, and thats not about to change, but like. holy hell dudes. i've been super damn wonky lately like
wow, i'm actually getting bothered by people misgendering me???? normally i can, like. deal. but in school and stuff, i don't pass for shit and i can admit that, but WOAH does it feel weird
like it's hard to describe the feeling- it's not like it hurts or i linger n stuff on it, but in the moment i almost correct them before remembering 'lmao hold it, i barely even have a consistent name and i'm not out to a single person fully' so i end up just ignoring it?? but its getting harder to ignore?
speaking of names also, i can't find one. my mom's basically pushed me off of my two favorite picks, and then the next in line just feels weird, like it's not mine. i just want a normal-sounding name, but i'm not about to go for 'luke' or something in the same sense i wouldn't go for 'sunny' because, even though i like them both, they're just not me, you know?
i've always loved certain names, but they're all 'girl' names (bea, mae, carrie) and ig the only masc-esque one would be Casey, which was actually my very first choice, but idk. it's not clicking with me.
this is just a dumb little vent-post-thingy because i'm also stuck in a rough art block, but like,,, bleh. i've kinda liked Oliver always but like no way in hell anybody would take me seriously if i asked them to call me that, which sucks but whatever,, anyway i am exhausted and am on three different baby naming websites looking for names while blasting 'happily ever after' from the SU movie. yeehaw losers <33
