I love her and only her

What's the point?

I walked into the house and noticed dad wasn't in the kitchen like most times. I figured he was laying down and was in one of his moods. So, I walked to my room and I didn't see him in his room either. 

I was so confused. All the cars are here except for my mom's car but she took it today for work. I sat my stuff down and went back into the living room. 

"Where is dad?" I asked my brother. 

"He's been outside for about 2 hours, you haven't seen him out there?" 

I then quickly ran out the door and looked behind the barn. Their he was. His helpless body just dangling there. 

"Give me the knife! Hurry!!" I said in a panic voice. Junoir gave me the knife and I cut my dad down. 

I couldn't hear his heartbeat. He wasn't breathing either. I just couldn't accept the fact that this was it for him. 

I kept trying to bring him back to life. 

"Laura stop!! He's gone... We gotta call mama and tell her." I can't believe he done it. 

"Ok..." I said as tears kept flowing. Yeah, he was such an asshole and shit but he was there whenever we needed him. He helped us out a lot with like electrical things. I didn't want to accept the fact he was gone... 

Junoir called mom. "Hey mama... dad killed himself..." 

"WHAT?!!? WHAT YOU MEAN??"

"He... hung himself behind the barn... I'm sorry mama..." 

I heard my mom broke down on the phone. I can't believe this is happening. First Mia... now, dad? Why does the world hate me SO much? 

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Next day

I walked into the school and I couldn't smile. I felt everyone starring at me. Next thing I know, my heart started to race. I didn't know why. 

I looked up and It was Ellie. No wonder my heart raced. I wanted to smile, but... dad is dead. I don't know what to feel. 

"Laura!" she hugged me tightly and I just cried. That's all I could do at this point. 

"Shhh, it's ok. Ellie is here to comfort you." I hugged her tightly. "My dad..." 

"I know honey." I looked at her, "how?"  "it's all over the news"   "I didn't know" 

That explains why everyone was starring at me. How come I haven't seen it yet? Who knows. 

I hugged Ellie again. "Let's go to the bathroom so you can clean up" I nodded and we both walked to the bathroom. 

Thankfully no one else was in there but us. I washed my face up and I looked at Ellie. She was on her phone scrolling through Instagram. I stared at her for a bit. I couldn't help it, she was just so beautiful. 

She looked up and I continued to wash my face. "Hey um... I know it's been rough for you. I am always here for you. You got my number ok." 

I nodded and said, "And you got my number too." She smiled and nodded. 

We hugged and we went back to the classroom. 

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Home

"I am so done with this work and it's only the second day of school!" I said. 

"Ok, first, take deep breaths and try again." 

I took a few deep breaths in and out. I feel a little better. 

After I finished my homework I ate dinner. Yeah, it's hard to forget dads death but it's part of life right? 

After I ate I took my medicine and went to bed. I just layed there, feeling so... hopeless or empty. I wasn't sure what this feeling was. 

Could it be... heartbroken? 

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Authors note!

Hey everyone!! Hope you're enjoying this book like I am writing it! If there anything wrong or any suggestions let me know, please! I am trying my best after all this is my first book! Thank you for supporting me. Means a lot to me! 

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