Why you? (A Rusame story) (on hold)

Old habits

Russia's POV

I looked behind us slightly, I noticed China was walking behind us loosely. He was very good at acting none suspicious, he seemed more like a creep. I nod at Ame and we walk way from his house, we take our sweet time

We eventually loose China, I finally have America all to myself. I wrap my arm around Ame, I looked at him. He is so short, and so adorable.

Ame looks up at me than looks back down.

America's POV

I looked up at Russia, I felt my face heat up immediately. I look down quickly.

I started remembering more and more, but it's always littler things. I alway have to have something to trigger the memory as well, and the presence of Russia is comforting but cold and ......well, scary.

We head back to my house, dad's going to be mad at how late I stayed. I say good bye to Russia and give him a hug.

I go inside and hear "AMERICA, WHY THE HELL ARE YOU LATE?"

I sigh and drop my backpack. I walk over to the living room and see my dad by the fireplace, drinking tea as always.

"Hey dad," I say blandly. "Why didn't you text me that you were going to be late or something," he says with a stern tone. "Sorry," is all I say. He scolds me for a few minutes than tells me to go to bed.

I get up and go to my room, I wasn't hungry so I didn't eat. I lay on my bed and look at my drawer. I sigh than get up and walk over to it and pull out the razor. I go to my bathroom and lock the door. I start a bath and get undressed.

I go into the bath and relax, than I grab the blade.

One cut

Two cuts

Three cuts

Four cuts

Five cuts, one right after another. The blood falls into the bath, I start to feel numb and my vision starts to get fuzzy.

I look down at my arms.........

Red

I only see the red juice fall into the now red milky water, I can't see the cuts anymore. I place my arm in the water, it stings a bit but it quickly goes away.

I lay there........and fall asleep in the bath.