It is Wednesday, September 18, 2019. My brother has been in the hospital for two days. Including today. He has diabetes and we didn't know he was in risk in falling into a coma and one of the last things I said to him was rude. What if he did fall into a coma and the last thing I said to him was rude. What if that happened? What would I do?
Tomorrow Ethan (my brother) and my dad are geting out of the hospital. My dad just got surgery and the docters believe they have gotten all of the cancer from his knee.
It was all unexpected and I've been crying so much. It is all very stressful and I haven't been going to school I have been staying with my brother in his room we aren't close and we fight alot but I love him. So I'm here trying my hardest not to cry. To stay strong. I wear my dad's grey hoodie to stay calm and know he is okay.
But. Today someone called a friend came to me and started fussing that I'm not Non-Binary and I'm not myself I'm just pretending to be for attention. And that ruined my day. I feel so self-conscious of my body I look to female and I can't even do anything to change it. I tried to bind my chest safely of course. And almost broke my rib.
But that isn't important the thing is my brother has now a lot to do to keep himself alive and safe. And my dad has to try and walk tomorrow. Also the threes of the DeFrisco's Logan(oldest brother) depression, Ethan (middle brother) Diabetes, Makayla Dyslexia and Disgrapha (youngest child ▪︎Me▪︎).
Today is alot. Enough writing tonight. I might update tomorrow
