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Good morning,Although I suppose it is more like night in Austin right about now (unless you're elsewhere right now).

Most Swedish people know English, if not all, some have some issues about just switching from Swedish to English though if they're used to just talking in Swedish but you'll do fine. If I don't use Swedish for a while I tend to get stuck in English, usually happens when I have visits from abroad.

Maybe you should take a visit to Poland as well, see Auschwitz-Brikenau? I think that there are quite a few movies about the danish resistance, I know I've seen two at least but I only remember the name of one of them: Flame & Citron in English. Another movie you should see is Aimée & Jaguar. I love the fact that you read, so few people seems to do that now a-days, and it saddens me greatly. Are you still obsessed with all things Jewish and the holocaust? I'm part Jewish (well according to determination of it, I'm not part Jewish, I'm a Jew), on my mother's lineage. It's not really part of my identity though, not my mother's either, more for my grandmother and her family though.

What I love about Sweden? Wow, that was a difficult question really, first of all it's my home so I guess that is one reason. But there are a lot of things that I love with Sweden really. Nature is one thing, free education is another, state subsidised health care, the country is fairly accepting and progressive (on a sidenote though, right-wing racism has become increasingly worse the last couple of years - but that seems to be a global problem, unpleasant none the less and I shudder to think about the future in that regard). Strawberries too, of all the strawberries I've tasted I like swedish ones the best. What do you love about the USA?

I couldn't tell why you anyone would leave someone else after the first romantic same sex notion, I've never had that dilemma as I've never had a boyfriend, but I guess it can be several reasons, either it's because she was unfaithful, either it is because she realised she wasn't heterosexual and not even bisexual (I don't remember the figure at hand what the estimated number of homosexuals living as heterosexuals are, but they exist), just an overwhelming experience and now needs to process it but can't if she's in a relationship. There could probably be many more reasons for that I suppose. On the other hand, I don't think I've ever seen a proper depiction of love in a movie, not entirely sure that it is possible.

Yes, they're quite the divas actually. But adorable (all cats are adorable). At most I had 8 cats, but that was when I was acting as a sort of... surrogate home for some cats that didn't have anywhere else to go so until they found new homes they stayed with me. Two is a lot easier. Do you have any cats yourself?

Truthfully, there is not that much that draws me to USA, the nature in certain places and MOMA in New York, but that is about it. That's not to say that I wouldn't go there if I had friends I wanted to visit there, but the country in itself doesn't do all that much for me... could be that I'd change my mind if I had been there, like take London for instance, if it hadn't been for the theatre scene there I would probably only have visited one time instead of going there almost every year (well that was before my grandmother died, we used to go there to see a play every year). I would have voted for Jill Stein if I could vote and I hope that Kshama Sawant will someday be running for president there. While not as bad over here as there, because truthfully our political leader does not go around causing global mayhem, but politics is as nonsensical here as it seems to be there. If you want to change something, grass roots movements is where the changes will be done. In my opinion, voting and electing candidates never gave us anything of value - labour movements, civil right's movements, unions, strikes, that's what brought about 8 hour working days, voting rights, "equality", and so on and so forth. I don't disregard politics at all, I think it has a place - but to vote for change? Maybe it is not possible to have organised movements anymore though, because compared to before - it seems so much more splintered now. I'm sorry, I tend to avoid politics because most people are not interested and I can go on rambling for ages about it.

I must have missed that movie actually, but maybe it was Nymphomaniac? Antichrist? Those are the only two Danish movies I know of that has some graphic sex in them. But I haven't seen either of them so I don't know at all. Do youlike horror? If so, you should see Riget, also called The Kingdom in English. I think Stephen King made a continuation of it (Kingdom Hospital), haven't seen that one though. It is a bizarre story that takes place at the main hospital in Copenhagen. It's a tv-mini series.

I've been into theatre since I was a kid really, started in elementary school like the 4th grade, unfortunately I haven't been able to perform much lately due to school, work and the union taking up quite a lot of my time. Did apply to a drama school here in Stockholm, three years in a row but I didn't get accepted - got further every single time though, so I might do that in two years time as well. From what I've heard, no one got in their first times of applying, most get in their 3rd to 6th time, but now I'm only two years away from my master's degree so I might as well do that and keep applying once I'm done and if I don't get accepted at least I have a different foundation to stand on.

This feels a little bit scattered and I'm sorry about that, was just a little bit stressed when I wrote it.