Uh... what is this?

Two hoodies though

Sister. is. here.

Did I even write about my new sister? Idk but uh yea I have an extange student living with my family and I and it's going pretty great. I literally have anxiety when I walk past her or her room. Idk, she just- she's new and I don't do new. But she's super sweet. And kind. And beautiful. And her voice is so soft.....lmao.

Oh guess fudging what!!

I have two, not only one, TWO of my girlfriend's hoodies. Yayyy!!! I don't know why I'm so excited but I'm really happy.

....ok I need to say it.... today she wore a maroon hoodie and she looked freakin............ good in it. Good, hot, cute, amazing, hot, I-Need to shut up.

I need sleep. I'm exhausted.... but she's gonna text me at 9.. but I'm really really tired. Meh, I'll just stay up til 1 or 2.

Orrrrrrrrrrr I can be a healthy person like I have been doing and go to bed now.... 9:26.

    girlfriend                        Being healthy

                     ....I don't know.....

Ahhhh. I have to choose between my girlfriend and my best friend every single day of my life now. I love my best friend and I'm scared that we're drifting and I won't let that happen.... but I also know that my girlfriend won't be here next year..... so I want to spend every second with her.

Have I really gone into details of how much I like Haley?

Love is a strong word right?

I just don't want to scare her by saying "I love you" all the time. I wait til she says it first I guess and then I say it back.

What if she thinks I don't love her???

Ok- no I'm not staring this 'what if' shit again. I say what if too much.

I should go to sleep. I gotta do laundry tomorrow and make my room a mess and then clean it.

.... did I ever mention I do that? When I'm stressed or anxious I'll take out everything in my closet and drawers and just make a mess and then clean it all up. It's- yea. Haha.

Maybe I should sleep.

But hazel.

But sleep.

But hazel.

I love hazel and I just- i just-she's just- alrighty I need sleep hahahahaha.

Maybe I will sleep after all. And just wake up at 8:00 and start the day off with cereal. I have no fudging clue why I just told you that but I did. Anywayyyyssssssssss goodnight.

UwU