we are on tour at the moment and i'm take my dog luna out. i know what you are thinking how do you have a dog on tour. well she is my emotional support dog because i have severe anxiety, therefore she is aloud to come with me on tour. while i was taking her outside to use the bathroom i saw jonah with a girl talking she looked really familiar. they started to walk towards me and i realized who it was. it was tate from the trust fund music video. " hey y/n this is tate, tate this is y/n my friend and also she opens for eben" jonah says. "your friend...more like your girlfriend but okay" i thought. "hi nice to meet you..again" "nice to meet you too..again" she said while giggling "you two know each other" "yeah for the trust fund shoot" i tell jonah "oh yeah that's right".
skip to the show
i'm about to go on and i'm doing my little warm up thing i do before i go on stage and one of those being doing a hand shake with the guys, but when i go to do mine with jonah he isn't there, so i just go on to stage trying to hide the fact that i was upset. i looked over a couple times to see if he was on the side of the stage watching but he never showed up, which made my mood even worse because he always stands there.
after my performance
"hey sorry i missed you before you went on stage" jonah said walking up to me with tate by his side "yeah it's whatever" i said with a tone that clearly meant it wasn't whatever "okay good thanks for understanding"
skip to the guys going on stage (sorry for all the skips)
before the boys go on stage we pray and they do their hand shake and then we do ours. mine and Jonah's are a little different because at the end we kiss but apparently not today. he just walked over to tate and gave her a hug. "wow jonah didn't even give your own girlfriend and hug" i said under my breath so no one could hear but eben did "i'm sorry y/n, i have noticed that he has been treating you differently ever since tate got here" he said pulling me into a hug
after they get off stage
normal jonah would walk right up to me after he performed, unless his family was there for obvious reasons, but as you can probably guess he didn't. he vee lined it to her and then came to me. i had my arms crossed and half way to me i just turned around and walked away.
at the hotel
we are staying in a hotel tonight because we don't have a show tomorrow and that's what we do when we have a off day we get a hotel. we are up on our floor and jon is hand out our hotel room cards. "y/n jonah here is y'all room card" "where am i going to stay" tate asked jonah quietly, but unfortunately i heard it "y/n won't mind if you stay in our room" he responded "hey jon here's my card i'm actually going to stay in Audreys room" (audrey is you videographer/photographer). i start to walk away with audrey to her room "y/n wait" jonah said still standing in the group with everyone else. i turned around to see what he wanted "why aren't you staying in our room" "because it doesn't seem like you want me to" "i never said that" "you don't have to jo, it's obvious" "y/n why are you acting like this" "i think that's a question i should be asking you" "i don't mean to sound clingy, but ever since tate got here i'm a nobody to you. apparently i'm not even your girlfriend" "that does make you sound clingy" "then i guess that makes another good reason to not share a room" "y/n that's not what i mean" "jonah just stop you just make it worse and i'm not just sticking up for her because she my friend, but ever since tate has gotten here you have treated y/n differently and i'm pretty sure everyone can see it" audrey said while i stared to walk away again. "jonah what does she mean girlfriend" tate ask, before jonah responds i turn around again and say "because i'm his girlfriend but i guess i have been wrong for the past year because apparently now i'm just his friend, so you can see why his friends is pissed off". jonah runs in front of me "stop knock it off. you know you are my girlfriend and i'm sorry i didn't say so when i introduced y'all" "first please don't talk to me like you are my dad, second it still doesn't make up for the fact that you have been treating me like shit all day and don't say how because if you can't realize what you have been doing them maybe you should be with her and not me" i said with tears treating to slip "woah woah woah woah stop no no we are not doing that. i want to be with you not her. no offense tate" "none taken" "i'm sorry" he said "do you even know what you are sorry for" i asked "yeah. i'm sorry for saying you were my friend and not my girlfriend. i'm sorry i didn't do our handshake before you went on stage and i'm sorry i didn't do it the right way before i when on stage. i'm sorry i didn't hug you after your performance or before and after mine. i'm sorry for not standing on the side of the stage, i know you were looking for me because i was watching you on the tv in the green room and most importantly i'm sorry for making you feel this way, you didn't and you don't deserve that. i will tell you right now i'm not letting you walk away from me, you are not walking out of my life, so don't you even try because if you do i'm coming with you" i laugh at his last comment as he pulling me into a hug "i don't deserve you y/n you never once blew up at me not even when it was happening and not when you were telling me. you didn't even yell at me and shit if you were doing that i would have yelled. i know it's hard for you to share your emotions and you don't say what's on your mind so you don't hurt other people's feelings but you got to talk to be bubs, you can keep this stuff inside and i know that's hard for you and i'm not mad at you for doing it but just know that i love you and i never want you to feel like i have given up on you or choosing some over you because i would never, you are always my first choice" "i love you too". he took his hands and put them on my face and pulled me into a kiss. after the kiss he leaned his forehead on mine and just smiled. he pulled me into another hug and kissed my forehead "awwwww" everyone said. i dug my head into jonahs chest out of embarrassment, he just laughed at me. he let go of me and grabbed my bags "you know those are mine, right?" "yep" "smooth marais smooth" "come on luna" he said. we both just laugh and went into our rooms
